Blue Rose

  All Rights Reserved  English translation: Verse: Walking on the edge, will I fall? Voices scream to turn back, Tell me why I must listen to you, Tell me, why? Black bird flies to the ground, At least I touched sky, No one can do anything anymore, Only I can  Die. Chorus and Intro: We aren't born in fire, We are dead on the ground, Never meant to reach the sky, This sadness ate my heart. #chillmusic #softvoice #lyricvideo #singer #sadsong #melancholic #author

  Planned to make simple dance/pop/whatever song where I could use effects, ended up making symphonic metal just how I like it. Here we have six techniques (growl, childish voice, middle head voice,  chest voice in chorus or whatever it is, my normal head voice, mixed voice), 8 seconds of C6, 4 seconds of E6 and F6, as well as 14,3 seconds of E5 in the end. Theme is expectations we get either from family or other people around us, that's issue that affect all of us at least sometimes during lives, a lot of people had their lives ruined because of what others expected them to do or to be. I am still stuck between "I want to follow my path" and "I have to do what is the best for the others", but at least I don't want to follow other things"I am supposed to do at my age" just because society expects that from me. 😵 #song #metal #femalemetal #singer #vocaltechnique #symphonicmetal #sarcastic #expectations #toxicpeople #toxicparents #society  

  All rights reserved In this song I wanted to play with voice effects to create new sound, I like how it turned out, maybe I will try out more in future as I already showed my full vocal range and technique in other works so now I can relax. Theme is related to the fact that some bad experiences from the past made me pushing away everyone in present, song is dedicated to one person from my past who had big impact on that, so now I am unable to have any friends or relationship as every connection freaks me out and drains me (that's the most likely avoidant personality disorder, I don't even care what's wrong with me anymore). I am sorry to everyone I ever pushed away, problem (usually) wasn't in you but in me. 😵 #girlrock #lyricvideo #amateurmusic #avpd #pushingpeopleaway #loner #operatic #singer #singing 

(my drawing from January 2023) #Translating this because why the hell not Disclaimer:  There is no need for panic because I am not actively preparing for anything, but my father's condition is still very bad and I can no longer endure sleepless nights since August and bad situation in the house, both material and deteriorated health of each of us, so there is possibility that as a person of bad mental state I break without any warning and planning. That's why I wanted to post this article that's written in June (so, before truck accident), all of this is really unpredictable and my soul is tired of everything, I don't need any advice or whatever because nothing can be used out of it in this situation, I can't think only of my health condition and life since long ago. I also have no use of anyone telling me how everything will turn out good in the end because I feel like that someone is underestimating seriousity of situation, I am aware that every day can happen wha...

(crtež iz januara 2023. godine) Napomena: Nema potrebe za uzbunom jer se aktivno ne pripremam ni za šta, ali je stanje mog oca i dalje jako loše i psihički ne mogu da izdržim neprospavane noći od avgusta i lošu situaciju u kući, kako materijalnu tako i zdrastveno stanje svakog od nas, te nije isključeno da kao osoba lošeg psihičkog stanja puknem bez najave i planiranja. Stoga sam želela da postavim ovaj članak koji je napisan u junu (dakle, pre saobraćajne nesreće), sve ovo je jako neizvesno i duša mi je premorena od svega, nisu mi potrebni saveti ili šta god jer ništa od toga ne može da se primeni u ovakvoj situaciji, ovde se odavno ne radi samo o mom zdrastvenom stanju i životu. Isto mi ne znači da mi neko govori kako će sve biti u redu na kraju jer imam osećaj da taj neko podcenjuje ozbiljnost situacije, svesna sam da se svakog dana može da se desi to što će se kad-tad desiti. Članak može delovati uznemirujuće zbog lične perspektive . Stigli smo do kraja (i zašto to ne bi trebalo da...