Winterborn, winterdead (Part One) (2008-2020)

 

Most of these "poems" are disturbing and made from my personal experience, they represent me and my psyche. Do not follow steps from any  that speaks about gruesome things like suicide, self-harm or murder. If you relate please seek help, don't end up like me. Parental advisory, some parts contain grafic explanation of various suicide methods, self-harm and morbid philosophy that can potentially be a bad influence to another person (I remind you again most of these "poems" are personal and they represent my own thoughts and actions). All rights reserved to writter.
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-MYSTERY OF TEARS (spring 2014)

Everything in my soul became dark blue,
Like hopeless lamb don't know what to do.
Wanna run, wanna hide, wanna cry, wanna scream.
All tears are gone, my eyes are hidding mystery of tears.
Wanna fly, wanna talk, wanna hug, wanna breathe.
No more, it's done. Now I'm hidding a mystery of tears.

Melody is covering the pain,
Lonely I can sing for the rain.
Everyone use to believe me
That I solved Mystery of Tears.
Deep in my history
Still is burning endless mystery,
I'll give all my dreams to
Solve a Mystery of Tears.

Secret pain, singing for rain,
Endless lying, fantasy is dying,
Quiet graveyard froze my heart,
This blue moon is leaving soon.
Tears won't fall, I am so alone,
Thoughts in brain which bring more pain,
Soul of angel damaged by stranger,
Who's gonna kill all this dreams?

Never solved... Mystery of Tears.

-HEAVEN'S GRACE (2013)

Dark rain is falling and stops all what I feel.
Dark night is here and it is scary.
I don't know where to go, I don't know where to run,
I don't know where... I am scared!

The darkness in this storm
In my place. Where is heaven's grace?

I don't know where to go
I don't know there to run,
I don't know, I don't know.

Where to go... Where to go?!

-DEADNIGHT (2013)

Death is walking around the Earth,
Waiting for somebody, keep with search.

World is already burning in fire of hate,
Souls in hell are paying for their fate,
Other souls live their peaceful life in heaven,
In heaven they will be forever.

Time when all good on the world dies
Oh, it's a deadtime.
Crushing, killing with no emotions,
Everything became crime.
The worst experience, one bad piece of life,
Everybody had it once.
Night when my soul goes from this world,
Oh, it's a deadnight.

-I WILL STAND ON RAIN (September 2012)

Flash broke street light,
Human and nature will start a fight.
A little drop of rain touch my neck,
This bad feeling is turned back.

I wish that rain could kill me.
Do I feel stronger? Do I feel free?
I will stand here, not move at all,
So what if I am sad? Let rain to fall.

I wish to become ill by rain,
How can I live with this pain?
Whatever I've done - it's same,
Now I'm gonna stand on the rain.
I shiver, it's a cold rain,
But colder is my pain,
Long ago I was brave,
Now I will still stand on the rain.

My feet in the cold water stay,
Rain doesn't stop, it's falling whole day.
After some time I start to sneeze,
Rain is breaking me, I am falling on my knees...

When rain stops, when sun goes up
I will never return back to the top
Cause my agony has stopped.
My the worst wish comes true, no more crying, no more rules.
Thank you rain, you killed my pain,
I'm myself again.
Thank you rain, you killed my pain...
My the worst wish comes true.

-ICE MIRROR (December 2012)

Empty trees, empty land,
Snow is falling on the Saturday,
With heavy steps I go to the frozen land.

I will walk till I breathe, I will walk till I live,
My destination is unknown.

No, I am not lost, I know where I go,
I will freeze my heart in the storm
And stop to shiver when I fall on the ice mirror.
No, I am not brave, just lost my mind,
When sun rise somebody will find me
But I'll be paying for my sins down in the underground.

White snow, black soul,
My way must be a mystery,
Stop when I fall, I will crush it all.

Snow hide me, hide me, I will give you my life.
Snow hide me, keep my dark secret and place where I died.

Last time I'll look at ice mirror,
Last time with half-open eyes,
Last time I'll look at ice mirror,
I will look at it...
And softly, sadly death takes me and I die.

-DYING BRIDE (spring 2013)

Hope, why should I hope, why should I breathe?
Events make me more crazy, more powerless.
No, this is is not tragic story, this is our lost way to the end,
I understand these tears are meaningless, like my love.

Circle now is burning, I am inside of it,
Whose is this turn to die, to bleed?

It's hard for you to find me, my black tears are painfull, I still
Let my soul be destroyed by tide,
I am crying on this grave, I am your dying bride.
Darkness wouldn't make me your wife,
On skin I write your name with a knife,
Whispers of your name echoes on this side,
I'm loser of fate, I am your dying bride.

It's hard for you to find me,
I am your dying bride, I am your dying bride,
I am loser of faith,
I am your dying bride, I am your dying bride.

-PAST (December 2012)

Blue tears are falling to the ground,
Winter cuts our hearts.
Hard is to stand there, legs just can't,
Heavy snow starts.

Poor people try to break ice,
It's holding to the black ground,
We want to turn back to her,
For this way is not found.

To the ground, to the grave,
We are all shivering but we are standing here,
She doesn't want us to cry, but we do,
Person whose this funeral is was a part of my soul.
To the ground again she is leaving,
She is not alive, she got no any feeling,
We are hidding her down, burying deep in the past,
Her name is past, I hope you understand.

Burying past is hard but necessary,
It's cold, snowy and I am shivering,
Nobody needs to understand,
She must be destroyed in the land.

To the ground... To the grave!

-LIFEDIE (autumn 2012)

Whisper is disappeared in time, I got sadness in mind,
I couldn't, I couldn't do anything, anything.
When life has to die, when spark stops to shine,
We'll nevermore be born again. We couldn't be born.

I wanna go but closed the door, I can't live here.
I am falling down, can you hear my sound?
I can't live and do anything.

Darkness is behind me, loneliness is all what I feel,
I am worrying, I couldn't do anything, anything.
When life has to die, stopping space, stopping our time,
We'll nevermore fly away. We couldn't fly.

All clouds are crying,
The only whisper is mine,
Nothing will be fine
When life dies.

-SECRET (2013)

Let the bird from your hand
To fly to the golden crown of tree,
Let my soul to stay here
Because I don't believe...

Fantasy is all around,
Bird is singing on the crown
Of tree this melody unknown.
Unknown is this dream,
Unity of the darkest fears,
Never leaves me, never sets me free.

Secret, like a silence, like I am unable,
Like a flowers in a vase fixed on the table,
Secret I keep, it's dying in me.
Running everywhere I go, everywhere I have been,
Cannot let it from my head
And leave it on this field.

-NO CONTROL IN MIND (autumn 2013)

These lights tonight cannot wake up my mind,
This fear is not clear, it makes me sad and blind!
Night is so fearfull, death sounds wonderful,
Life is a sadness, mind is emptyness.
Room of a darkness, I am powerless to scream...
There is nothing left. Calling death to kill a silence.

A lamb which tries to hide and gonna run, run until cage don't
Catch him and cut off his little leg. It tries
To hide, sometimes all this is just illusion, mind runs and makes bad solutions...
And then it breaks down and dies!

I dreamt that I wanna scream
Cause something wants to catch me,
I lost my voice, but these ghost's hands
I can feel on my skin.
Fear of everything in dreams
Comes here, in real life,
Everything is so scary but I can't scream and cry.

I feel guilty all the time,
Did I lose myself and my mind?
Calling death, come, now it's time,
Can't do this anymore, I want to die.

-STORM IN MIND (autumn 2012)

Storm in the beautiful place
Is crushing everything,
Flying high, like a grace,
Turns off all feelings.

Why storm lives in my heart?
Why it's rageing? I am still alive, but
I don't know... Why, why, why?
(When I will die?)

Let me fall, let me again breathe,
Let me shiver, let me cry, that's all I need.
Feelings are frozen, lost inside of a storm,
I have nowhere to go.
Let me fall, let me touch the top of life,
Let me be happy, let me be sad, slowly I am dying,
Clouds are black, making dangerous storm, my heart is knocking like a bomb.

Please, take me...
I feel scared, only can compare present and past,
Or just make me
Stronger, to stay here longer, and I will give my best.

-TWO WARRIORS (2012)

Our swords are united, we are two warriors.
The words are lost in mist like a lost sailor.

It's time for fight, time for battle, yay!
There's no time, I can't listen what you say.
Let's play this life game. Yay!
We are brave, we give our life for this world,
We are two warriors.

We got swords in our hands,
We got a courage in our hearts,
We got all what we need
To make this magic start.

We have a power, we are strong,
Our fight will last for long, long, long...

-DON'T CHANGE YOUR SOUL (autumn 2012)

From heaven angel is coming,
On the Earth he started worrying,
Why is this world cruel?
So much evil, so many rules.

Then angel started crying,
Nobody is happy and smiling,
He can't alone change the world,
No one listens what he told.

Don't change your soul, it's more expensive than gold,
You must be fighter, don't let your heart to be cold.
Don't lose this battle, don't go on dark side ever,
We have to believe in good things forever, ever.

To heaven angel came back,
He asked himself why world is black,
Too many things had changed,
Too much evil, everything is strange.
Then angel started thinking
Why all good things are slowly missing,
Did people forget who they are
Or good people went too far?

Hey angel, don't worry, you're not alone,
You can change this world with your sparkling soul.
All around are people who are thinking like you,
When they are in the same place everything they can do.

-VIEW FROM HIGHNESS (2012)

It's hard to climb to the top of a mountain,
It's hard to live life with pain,
But it's harder to say you love someone,
Also it's hard to be happy and have fun.

I know that I can - so confusing, it's ruining my brain.
I know that I want - still brave, climbing yes, falling not.

View from highness, looking down to the land,
It's a good feeling to feel like a goddess,
With my hand easy I touch the sky,
Wind all around me makes me fly.
View from highness, looking to the ground,
I'm close to heaven, so far from the underground,
I don't wanna leave it, I will be there all day
Cause I fell stronger and brave.

It's hard to have all what you want,
It's hard to be normal when your soul is not,
But it's harder to keep peace in your heart,
Also it's hard to be of secrets guard.

Goddess from mountain is looking down to land,
She is strong, she is the one who can understand,
Everything on this world, all the people, all the animals and plants
She can understand.

-COUNT ON THE BLACK HORSE (november 2012)

Every girl is standing and waiting for her prince
On white horse, in white clothes, like a fairytale.
I was dreaming about that, but not anymore,
I know that was a mistake, my heart felt

In love, he got something what other people don't,
He isn't prince, he is a count. I don't care, I want him,
Cause he, he got something wild and mystic,
He makes me different, it's so fascinating,
He is a man from my dreams.

I will wait for your comeback,
And I will wear white beautiful dress,
There will be opened all the doors
Because there comes my count on the black horse.
Magic night it will be for me
Cause you're making my spirit free,
You love me and I love you, of course,
Became my dream, my count on the black horse.

I need you everyday, again and again,
I'm waiting you, come on, break this pain,
Everything in me is yours,
You are my count on the black horse.

I promise you, wherever I'll be,
I will see you here,
Mysterious feelings will always be here,
Now my soul is free.

-STANDING ON THE GRAVEYARD (2013)

I'm standing on the graveyard,
Last place where I will be,
I am hopelessly searching, are you here?
My mind, are you here?

Story from drama movie when actor loses brain,
That had happened to me, cold blood is in my veins.
Poem of yellow sun which blinds me from the hills
Is meaningless, I'm still searching my brain, my dreams.

In this heavy ground, is there my brain?
Or, is it in the sky, on the cloud, somewhere far away?
Did birds take it with them? Is it gone with sunset?
Maybe sadness had killed it, pushing it from the planet.

-SELF-DESTRUCTIVE (2013)

Losing fantasy, last time I breathe,
Too weak to whisper "help me".
Tears dissapeared, I'm the one who lives
On a piece of never-lit field.

And all this screams in my mind now,
All or nothing, both scream so loud.

Losing picture of this perfect world,
Simply forgeting everything I never had told,
My the worst enemy my whole life was me,
Self-destructive person made a cage for her own soul,
Too destructive to scream "Save me, help me!"

And tonight I am with my the worst enemy,
Self-destructive person never could be free.
And tonight I am with my the worst enemy,
I spend time with this, I cannot be free.
When I hurt her I hurt me.
The only person who wants to kill me is my enemy.

I'm self destructive! Don't judge me... I'm destroying me... I am my own enemy.

-GREY STORM (2013)

This grey clouds could call angels,
Behind clouds sun's face changes,
That what I feel, could it be rain?
Like hundred thoughts in mind and brain.

Storm is coming closer to us, (you can show me)
Behind us is a flash, (and I am going)
Who cares if it's grey? Don't move, just stay
Watch this...

Stormy weather, crush all these clouds,
Hundred drops are falling on this dead town,
Silent screams from the mountains where somebody is lost.
Stay with me, softly hug me,
Stormy weather makes me complete,
Let's sing together on this stormy weather!

-WE GONNA REBORN (2013)

Night keeps the door of a tower for strangers closed.
I can go in, there I left my hopes.
Moon keeps my soul, take my hand, come on.
Why we must die when we can get reborn?

I know for sure that we gonna reborn,
On new land we come on unicorn.
I know for sure that we gonna reborn,
On this land everything is yours.

We gonna reborn, again reborn, reborn.

Changing this life is better than to die,
When it's the only way whispering I will say
Reborn, we gonna reborn, again reborn, we gonna reborn.

-NEVER BE PERFECT (2013)

I'll never be perfect even if I try,
I'll never be the best, pressure is mine.

I'll never be perfect, never be perfect,
This is ruining my life.
I'll never be the best, never be the best,
Too numb and empty to cry.

Perfection is goal which I need to reach,
I don't do it for myself, but they want it.
Or maybe it's my illusion, my obsession?
Too much steps I need to beat.

I feel like everyone is watching me.
I feel like my mind made a cage for me.
No, let me! No, stop this!
No, this is not my mind, this is sin.

-REVENGE (2013)

Dancing in the fire, dawn is coming,
Sparkles of fire are burning air.
Tonight it will be your last chance,
No dawn for you, I swear.

Drums are beating, full moon is in the sky,
Mirrors of water show me the face,
I see it blury, it's still early,
To stop this madness, to change fate.

Light blue room hides angel's heart,
No one sees angel doesn't want to fall.
Light blue sparkly tears on her face,
No more hapiness to fill my space...

This little bottle of poison is hidding in my hands,
What's gonna happen you can't yet understand,
You gonna close your eyes, you gonna fly back home.
Revenge, darling, revenge, you just lost your strenght.
I'm gonna lock your fate, I hold the key.

Oh, I wish to fly, to be bird now,
To go from this castle of my mind.
I feel like some enemy is near me,
I got a feeling somebody wants to destroy me.

Gypsies play music, I don't stop my dance,
You should dance too, this would be your last.
My hands are snakes that are moving to my hips,
Tonight poisoned wine will be on your lips.

Afraid of fate, afraid of life.

Tomorrow I'll be leaving fire,
I'm gonna be on your place,
You won't be alive,
No more your lovely face.

-WHERE YOU DISAPPEARED (2013)

When the night brings us silence
You know time is perfect,
Dead soul without a candle
Like a shadow is leaving temple.

Your soul runs from graveyard,
Your tomb is empty and cold,
You know, you kill, you paint with blood,
You make people breathe hard.

Dead people are tonight walking through the graveyard,
Leaving houses of flowers, run away from biers.
Vampire search for souls, search for victims,
Making them scream, bring their bloody tears.
Dead people are tonight walking through the graveyard,
Parade of scelethons is dancing under the moon,
Vampire is looking at the moonlight sky
Needs to leave this world, dawn comes soon.

When moonlight dance ends with goodbye
And all this stars cover dark blue sky,
Wind whispers to me "Vampire is here",
I just say softly "I don't believe".

Like this moon will leave the dark,
This night is time when you are leaving your ark.
Empty tomb is hidding empty coffin,
I feel you are breathing behind me...

What should I do? Should I scream?
You must be an illusion, the darkest dream.
I don't want to be forever alive
So, if you would kill me, I would rather die.

Slowly you whisper "You'll be fine,
Tonight you'll come with me, you'll be mine."
On my neck I felt kiss
You have my blood on your lips...

Before you disappear...

Void is waiting for you, coffin is empty,
I still breathe, you poisoned me,
Still cannot believe, this is dream...
Where did you disappear? Tell me.

-SAD MORNING OF GLOOMY SUNDAY

Music which is calling pain from heart,
This Gloomy Sunday from speakers starts,
My angels won't be angry, they are in sleep,
Dark melody is taking me...

Darkness was taken away from the charts,
But it's on my lips, now it starts.
Candles can't burn, wind blows the flowers,
Dark melody is singing her words...

Sunday is gloomy, Sunday is gloomy,
Sunday is gloomy again.
No more prayers, no more candles,
No more flowers to stand there.
Sad morning of Gloomy Sunday.

Creepy melody, but beautiful and still
Makes me to stand there, to start believe
Life is only one dark ilussion,
Melody showed me the solution...

End of Gloomy Sunday...
No more listener, there are no candles,
Nor flowers, nor prayers, nor angels to be mad.
Only dark melody which breaks silence,
The end of melody sad...
Body is lying dead.

-BEHIND A VICTORY (2013)

This is my story
With my hopes from life I had once,
From life which once existed,
Cannot be repeated.

This is my failure,
With my victories behind the light,
Behind tears, fogotten
Deep.

Behind a victory!

Failure, every day I listen that
From myself, need to try harder,
Even victories come just like that
I can't ever feel smarter.
Failure, this is such a failure life,
Not just life, failure is my mind
Cause these victories don't mean
To me, do I deserve it?

Behind the victory is one story,
I am not perfect, that is all in your head.
Behind all my victories
Is one story that you will never understand.

Winner, standing in front of my name,
What I won, are tears counting?
Even I try to forget this
Here always comes reminding.
Winner, rumors about it,
She doesn't deserve happiness.
Don't worry, my dear,
Inside I am still emptyness.

Behind a victory is a person
And hundred tears before a sleep,
Behind all my victories
I am falling deep.

If you are smilling, you are not crying,
Just to say, you look ok,
If you are breathing, you are still living,
You are done, you have fun.

Stop!

-BLACK LAMB (2013)

Black lamb... Black lamb...

On the green grass and between yellow flower
Is sleeping one little sweet black lamb.
Days of hoping mean to me nothing,
I wanna have someone who can understand.

Through the field lamb is running while night is coming,
Free on this land, sweet black lamb.
I'm looking at the field and I want still
To be like a lamb and to catch a breath.

Black lamb is running here
On this land
I am waiting for
I am waiting for freedom.

Land full of flowers became my home,
I left my old life on the big stone,
I'm playing with little black lamb again
To forget my sorrow and my pain.

It has a little sparkling eyes.
I'm tired of fighting for the prize,
Lamb, please wait me, with you'll stay,
We are both running through the flame.

Black lamb... Black lamb...

-STARS ARE TALKING TONIGHT (2013)

Tonight... I try to be peacefull,
Tonight... My heart is full of gold.
All words now disappeared in time,
Tonight I need to hold.

Don't take these stars from me,
They're keeping their story alive.
Moon is my brother who'll shine  another time.

Tonight... These stars are talking to me,
Tonight... Words are free in space.
All words now disappeared in time,
Tonight Moon is hidding face.

Don't take this night from me,
New moon is reborning tonight.
Let stars keep talking,
Magic become alive.

Cause stars are talking tonight.

-SEVENTENTH CENTURY (2013)
*not really historically accurate, I know that now

Mysterious girl gave you a map,
Do you wanna meet me or you wanna stop?
My dark world is so rich,
I just hope you don't want to burn me like a witch.

I am not evil, I don't need your favor,
And don't belong to anyone,
When I die my mission will be done.
I belong to dark night, I belong to darkness,
Without  a moonlight my mind is powerless.

By day I am average girl who prays to God,
When the night comes to us I become a Goth.

Sevententh century (do you wanna meet me),
Follow gothic mystery (stay here),
I don't want your soul, I don't need your blood,
I need a freedom, let me be a Goth.

Sevententh century (follow me)
Night belongs to me, (hurt me)
I am a darkness, I am a light
Which you are following this night.

Maybe I am an illusion,
You hold piece of a black lace.
Look at me, you witch-hunter,
Do you see any evil on my face?

By day I'm an average girl,
But thank you, God,
You gave me the dark night
I can be a Goth.
Goth's fate is to walk
Until sun goes up,
Do you wanna meet me
Or you wanna stop?
Gothic girl is hidding
In the house through the day,
During night she has a passion,
She wears leather and lace.

-STAY'N'GO AWAY (2013)

Oh, oh, confused, saying no, no, don't look me
And oh, oh, take care of me.
Oh, oh, I'm a jerk and no, no, I'm crazy cause
Oh, oh, I want you and don't want you next to me.

I wanna tell you come, and then I tell you go,
I wanna tell you stay, but then it's go away,
I wanna decide but no,
My mind is confused, saying oh, oh, oh, oh, oh.

What can I give you but a pain,
(you need to save my brain)
I must go, must go away,
(in life make me stay)
You could never see my smile,
(do you see that I cry)
What if I give up my life?
(what would be if I die?)

Please say no, it will be easier to go.

-SOLUTION OF SOUL (autumn 2013)

Voice in my head can't stop talking,
Through the darkness I keep walking,
This problem can be solved on one way,
But not right now, not today.

This is life? No, this is a lie.
Waiting night when I'll say goodbye,
And when you hear church bell
My soul will already be in a fire of hell.

Solution of my mind now is not good,
Darkness takes my life so cruel.
My mind cannot think anymore,
The only way is to come with you.

Church's bell shouldn't chime for me,
I lost my soul and darkness got it,
In this world is silence, I killed voice
I got no other choice.

-TWO SIDES OF ONE PERSON (2013)

Two sides of one person should meet never,
In my twisted mind confusion last forever,
One pushes left, other right,
I am breaking in two pieces,
Two sides, both have to die,
Take away this crazy smile,
Go away for a while, give me peace.

Wrong or wronger? Sadness is stronger
Than me, it's crushing me, taking me.
This is no real, I became ill,
Of this side of my twisted mind.
Lost myself here where darkness had lived,
Between two sides of my twisted mind.
Stolen tears, my head screams,
I am going left, I am going right
Because of my freaken mind.

Which is right side?
What do you want, my freaken mind?
What I have to find?
Why my brain became blind?

You are showing me wrong way to light,
To commit su...

Sides of one person should meet never,
In my twisted mind confusion last forever,
One pushes left, other right,
I am breaking in two pieces,
Two sides, both have to die,
Take away this crazy smile,
Go away for a while, give me peace.

In my twisted mind.

-DEPRESSION (2013)

Angels left me here,
Is it darkness or just one bad place?
Angels want me to live
But I can't even look at my face.

Tired of myself, tired of reality
Tired of thinking what I want to be,
Tired of people, tired of tears,
Tired of everything which is feeding my fears.

Stop me, don't let me,
I'm crushing God's creation,
See it, I'm scared, controlled by depression.
Tonite innocence is gone inside of bad temptation,
I'm one of people who died while searching perfection.

Is there light for me?
I'm in sadness, in pain, damaged.
You want me to live
But on myself I am mad.

Tired of sadness, tired of happiness,
Tired of the struggle which is endless.
Tired of a day, tired of night,
Tired of life when I lost my sight.

Depression controls and gave me the rules,
At first I didn't want to play a game,
But she made me fall in cage and
Stole from me everything, even my name...

Stop me, stop me, stop me!

-BLUE GRAVEYARD (2013)

Lonely on the ice, my eyes have no life,
My lips became numb, living without a smile.

Angel on my right side seems can't help me,
So much things are too hard to forgive.

I am not fallen angel, I am only an empty soul,
Who doesn't need anything, neither hapiness nor love.

Blue sorrow, please leave me like you did before,
On melody of my heart.
Blue crystal water from my dark dreams
Became my graveyard.

My sorrow sings this symphony,
This thought is obsessing me,
No feelings anymore
In my lonely empty soul.

-FANTASY (2013)

Blue shall flies to the sky
Magic sparkles of my fantasy.
Wind flows through the sky, can you see that star?
I follow it.

The pure beauty of the night
Makes to believe, to fly.
Moonlight gives sparkles to me. Fantasy.

The most wonderful view which I ever saw,
Sun still won't come here to call the dawn,
Mind can work better than eyes could see.
Fantasy.

Melody of fantasy, wings which fly to the blue sphere, everywhere,
Angel's melody is here
In this space, in this grace.
Light which is touching my face,
Fantasy of the night when I lived.

-BLUE VIOLIN (2013)

Burning wings are no more flying,
Too much fears.
There are no more tears,
There's only blue sad melody of blue violin.

No more sweet dreams, no more lullabies,
Till the end of my life,
There are only tears of blue violin,
When I hear it I start to cry.

Blue sky becomes grey, blue river now is green,
Nature in my eyes is losing colours.
On this field I never ever had been.

Childhood now is over, I see things which I never had seen,
Peace and violence in one melody,
Melody of a darkness, of a blue violin.

Child's wings, snowy white, are burning on the egde
Of the childhood, when soul grows up
And comes to new world, everything is strange.

No more my angel wings, no more lullabies,
Now are changed all my dreams and all my feelings
By the sound, by a melody of a blue violin.

-FOR YOUR SELFISH WISHES (beggining of 2013)

I'm dying, I'm dying here,
For your dreams I stop breathing,
I'm dying, I'm dying here,
For your all selfish wishes. (For all your wishes)

Did you love me? Did you trust me?
Have you ever felt something in your soul?
Now is broken everything, my love and promises all,
My words switched with a silence.

Did I miss that? Did I touch your mind?
I think I didn't do that, so now I will die.
Now is bleeding everything, I'm losing all my life,
Wind takes my tears, everything for your dreams.

In my the last moment I don't need to see you,
Just say one "sorry" and my heart is full.
But I still don't believe in that, don't believe in you.

-SUN (2013)

Sun, you bad one, you're rushing all my dreams,
You're taking my peace away.
Sun, have you done? Your shinning is bad for me,
I want there night still.

Across the hills your yellow face
Comes, you're breaking nights, you are calling days,
You break my dreams, you're killing night,
I don't know what is right.

Across my sleepy eyes, my bloodless skin,
I still keep the dark in heart within,
And when I'm walking to the light in dreams
You have to wake me.

Let me to sleep, I will go deeper,
In sadness, my days are powerless.
Let me to sleep. Let me...

-EVIl GIRL (2013)

Evil girl, with the death in her hands,
Is running for you, she wants your head.
Can you hide somewhere or run away, till your last day?

Evil girl kills everybody, kills every living soul,
Don't have emotions, she is untouchable.
Don't say that you are not scared by her,
She's too dangerous.

Evil girl will laugh when your body without a head
Be under her arms, her legs.
She can only take your life, every day,
She is watching you until she kills you.
Evil girl has a sword in her hand,
She lets your blood to fall to the land,
Her sword is red by blood and with that sword
She will cut off your head, make you dead.

Go hurry and run away, try to live, take a strength,
I hope that you can hide from her red hell-like eyes!

-HUNDRED FACES (2013)

Day is starting, sun is calling up this morning.
Sparkling on the river, melody of a singer still lives.

Flower's growing, lily opened this little wings,
One little purple angel is showing drops of the river tears.

Then again, clouds return back to the sky,
Was this morning just a lie?
Looking to this darkness, world of sadness.

Storm is crushing world,
World in me burns,
Killed by the the stone
Which returns.

Rain starts, falls appart, reality is killing dreams.
 
I am sure I am not normal
Anymore, anymore, mind is blown,
I would like to feel again
Any feeling! To disappear!
To open my eyes right now, right here.

I am sure I am lost in my mind,
Anymore, anymore, I cannot fly,
I would like to open my wings again,
Once again, before I disappear,
To live one day without shivering and fear.

I feel like I have a hundred faces.

-SPARKLES OF LOVE (2013)

Everytime I imagine sparkles of love,
Everytime the whisper comes and breaks it all,
Anything I do is not good, so what to do,
Everytime when I start thinking about you.

Decision: Forget dreams, forget the pain it brings.
Current situation: I didn't do anything.
I have no more mind, you stole it,
Drops of sadness from my eyes are falling on my feet.

This is not a love poem, this is more word of hate,
If you ever listen to this, I hope you feel great.
I don't need you, I'm sure in that,
But there is something which I still regret...

I don't want revenge, I don't want love,
Neither sadness nor more tears, I have it all,
I just want to tell me what to do,
To feed dreams or simply forget you...

-WRONG PLACE FOR ME (2013)

Wrong place for me, don't deserve to be here,
Too good for me, why am I here still?
Why don't I take my heart away?
Why is so hard to go when you cannot stay?

There is darkness in my world, there is darkness in my eyes,
There is sadness in my words, my words are box of lies.

Whose are this sentences in this dark poem?
What am I waiting here, still don't understand?

Is there some place on Earth where I belong,
Where I could stay enough long,
Where I could live, where anyone couldn't say
That I am a waste of space.

Is there a good reason to stay,
To find a solution, the best way?

Lost in some place I don't belong,
I try to find myself, but this is a waste,
This is wrong.

My lonely world cannot be more rich if I'm trying to find myself
To keep smiling, I'm just gonna lie everybody,
I have to go away.
What am I doing here?

-ADDICTED TO BLOOD (2013)

Here it falls, falls, falls, it falls.
Stop, stop, stop when I want.
But I never lose it all,
Never, never gona fall, fall it all.
Here it falls, falls, falls, it's gone,
Wait, wait, wait, I'm alone.
No one can stop it, stop it all.
Let me, let it, let me fall.

If you are sad I'll come to help you,
I'll talk with you like the real friends do.
If you are crying I'll be here,
But, please, today stay away from me.
Don't ask me what I plan to do,
Nevermind, why I should tell it to you?
And if you see some blood on my coat
Just ignore, don't be scared,
That is what I want.

Here it falls this dark red
Piece of life, I again
Hold a piece of a silver blade
Between my red bloody hands.
Here they fall, these bloody tears,
Tears from veins, I again
Hate myself, I cannot stop,
I'm addicted... I'm so alone.

Never do that, I'm beggin you, when you start that is part of you.
Without it you wouldn't know what to do, your life becomes painful.
Never do that, this is my tip, the last thing which is gone from my lips,
I cannot stop, again and again
Silver blade is falling from my hand...

-END OF ME (December 2012)
 
I go away.
Close the doors, close the windows,
Don't let hope to come in.
No tears, no fears, no memories.
Let it to be fast.
Am I making a mistake?
My hands will break it all.

Blow my heart to the space, there's no blood in the veins,
Cause it felt to the snowy ground.
Don't follow and search for me,
I am stone and nothing I could feel,
Let my dead body to be never found.
(Don't bring the flowers to my grave)

I go away.
Close the eyes, close your heart.
I don't want you to see it.
No emotions, no friends, no family.
I will do it.
I know it's a mistake. My hands will break my soul.

I go away, I go away, sorry to everyone if I didn't say.
I go away, I go away, with the shivering hand I will do that.
I go away, I go away, I go into dark, scary, creepy death.

Don't follow me, don't search for me...
Don't wait for me, I will never come back.

-MISSED LIFE (2012)

All temptations in my life
Take far away moment when I'll die,
Sometimes wars, sometimes peace,
And nightmare and sweet dreams.

Oh, I missed that, I missed all,
I got problem with my soul,
I am meanless, I am so small.
Oh, I'm losing that, I'm losing all,
Problem is why I still fall,
My life is rolling, rolling, rolling like a ball.

Take me away from temptations,
It's pushing me to the hell,
And make me stronger if my inspiration
Turns back on the right way, I have to hear church bell.
But I am afraid can I fall, can I lose my mind now?
I have to run from temptations all
Must keep my mind, I should never fall down.

Missed life, missed dreams,
Sometimes wars, sometimes peace.

-FROZEN NIGHT (2012)

Shivering in the dark, I can't move anymore,
I'm frozen, I can't feel my legs, no.
Everything is hurting, everything is hurting,
Everything is freezing, everything is stopping,
Losing mind, losing soul, losing control.
I can't breathe, I can't go.

Everywhere are just a frozen flowers,
Everywhere is just a frozen field,
I can't find my tower,
I die cause I don't believe.
Anyone, anymore, I'm frozen here.

Shivering in the night, ice is everywhere,
I'm frozen, confused and scared.
Everything is missing, everything is missing,
Everything is dying, nothing is smiling,
Losing mind, losing soul, losing control,
I can't breathe, I can't go.

-MELODY (2012)

Long ago there was a kingdom, a lot of castles with the towers,
Fascinating world it was, it was better than anywhere.

Long ago there was a princess, a prince and a scary beast,
Now there is an empty field cause everything is twisted.

That fairytale I have forgotten long, long ago.
That fairytale I don't remember long time so.

But a melody of this world still lives,
Melody which princess was singing long, long ago,
This melody got a soul, got a feeling,
Melody is living, kingdom not anymore.
Beautiful melody is still living,
Melody which got a soul,
Hear it in the morning, hear it at night,
Kingdom is again born.

Melody turns back time
When fairytale was true,
Melody I'm singing, it's mine,
Kingdom, where are you?

-MISANTROPHE (2019)

Back in the prehistory, in the order Mamalia
Was created a new species.
It was inteligent enough to take a reign,
Greedy enough to destroy everything,
Welcome to the world you'll ruin
Homo sapiens.

Instead of saving the Earth, his only source,
He thought it would be better to create wars,
What a complicated species it was,
Looks similar but so much different traits in us.

Oh, come on! It's so easy to become a misantrophe,
Even if the meteor would fall
To kill kill the humans, to kill us all,
There would be some jerk who would crawl
To continue our human race,
Do we even deserve a space,
When we destroyed this place?
Human species is a lost case.

They said the God created humans,
But they act more like the Devil created them,
Never saw animals kill each other for no reason,
Seems that evil nature can't be stopped just with prison.
Maybe psychopaths are actually smarter than most of us
Because we will anyway turn into dust.

It's well-known, since the beggining of a time
Human species is meant to die...

Easy to hate them all,
So easy to be a misantrophe,
Just take a look at a world.
We built and we ruin,
We created virtues and sins,
Pure heart simply doesn't exist.

Homo sapiens is capable of impending
Something that for hundred years surely won't exist,
Concentrating on it's own destiny
Earth will survive, we will die,
When you'll realise it?

-ALTERNATIVE (2019)

I don't know what bothers more
Attracting so much sun of ignorant people's glances.
It's insane people can look so dangerous
Just because they have more dark makeup on their faces.

For them I am either in cult or worship Satan,
Well, if you wanna know, I'm actually a Christian,
But I respect all people equally,
Maybe you can learn something from me.
This is not cult, it's called alternative.

This is the real me, don't bother to iluminate me with your light,
I am not sick, nor I'll hurt you,
I am completely fine.
When the darkness surrounds inside me is a dark harmony,
Not a phase, forever I want to be an alternative.

Embrace your darkness, never let your true self leave,
There is nothing wrong with being different,
This is who you are, live how you feel.

I hate when the sun is shining
So heat makes my makeup start melting,
But I hate more when they misjudge me
Just because of the clothes I am wearing.
I may dislike when everybody around me
Rejoice with the music I'm not listening,
I am trying my best to tolerate
But, when my music comes, they start to hate!

Whether a punker, emo, rocker, metalhead or Goth,
Steampunker, combination or something else, why not,
As long as you feel as part of it stay true,
Life is too short to listen to blabbering of some fools.

-ARMAGEDDON (2019)

Till the bomb time is counting, counting down,
Armageddon, time is knocking, knocking down,
The end of the world we know, counting down,
This might be our the very last dawn.

1) The blood of our Earth is poisoned,
Her core is hallowed out for her bones.
Her lungs can't breathe, there's carbon monoxide,
We are blaming her for her desperate moans.

2)Is  there the last trace of sanity in people
To prevent the greatest war of them all,
Reaching the harmony through diplomacy
Before the end of the world we know.

3)Ignore reality, for most of them
Prophecy is a bunch of nonsence,
Do what you want, but beware,
You might be the witness of the greatest horror,
Wait for Mabus with closed eyes when you don't care.

1)There might be kindness in every human
Why they chose to act this way, to show
Their worst side instead of who they can be,
How it'll affect future, wish they know.

2)It's not a question of religion, it's a mindless rage,
Greed, bitterness, sadness, revenge or pure selfishness,
Erase the borders so we can all be human instead of nationalities,
Erase the hate, wake up before we make more dissasters.

3)Hospitality will be your doom,
They will never think like you,
Behind your back they call you fools
And consider your actions as sin.
Controlled by the mighty force which is patiently waiting the day
Of the most poisonus mushroom world has ever seen.

1)Bodies are floating on the crimson sea,
Burning people are falling from the sky,
Glow is taken away from the moon,
Half of humankind dies.
Starvation, thirst and illnesses
Replaced our average life,
No more melodies, only cries,
Doomed are the ones who survive.

2)They promised there will be future for chosens,
Even after the nuclear war,
But shall we destroy our present and past,
Just to create world that we want?

3)Our ancestors gave their lives for us
To show us that future on corbses can't be built,
Every single fight over their dead bodies
Isn't our pride, but guilt.

-SUICIDE DENIED (2019)

Sometimes I wonder... How scary it is
To stand near the edge and to look down,
Nothing else, just to look down?
My mind makes questions; How much courage it takes
To make a step forward
To be surrounded by water or to hug the ground?
Who would know... Do you need more courage
To do what you came for or to go back
Like it's nothing, simply to turn around?
Would they believe me then?
Would it be all the same?
Seems that everybody believes only
When they see someone in the coffin, dead.

Make sure you wash your hands
From misjudging once you turn off the light,
Make sure you clean your soul from
Ignoring someone's silent fight,
You are not the only one with stones
On your back, be considerate for other's plight.

Don't make this Suicide Denied!
(it's a fact, you can deny, but it won't take them back)
It all seemed fine!
(if you opened your eyes wider you would have been shuddered)
It can't be true!
(Ironically, you was a witness but you'll forget eventually).
If you bite your chains and somehow set yourself free,
They will ignore your blood, your scars from the fight,
If you fall and disappear this is when they will see,
But then it won't matter anymore were you wrong or right.

This river understands me better than any human,
It drowned so many souls like my despicable one.
Even animals notice sadness you carry like a burden,
In vain humans value themselves
When they don't care.

Death is pulling my veins like a strings of a violin,
Ripping it apart one by damn one,
Oh, what a music, such a lovely bloody symphony,
When this is over they will still think that I was fine...

No, it didn't happen,
We couldn't do anything about it,
Let's close our eyes and this shall pass,
Until here comes another mess.

One by one they will fall,
This world is place for carnivores,
They eat your soul, smash your brain,
Putting mask of innocence and call you insane!

-PREACHERS (2019)

There were some preachers
That hunted we through the centuries,
Hunting the witches to teach about morality.
I used to love all people, wanted to help them all,
Now when the world is aganist me
I'm questioning humanity.

Deathly silence covers the night,
Folks got their torches up in the sky
With yells and shouts they are coming for me,
I know I need to dissapear.

Accused for cursing the village
With flood, with illness, with anything they can think of,
They crave my blood,
Their ignorance shall be my pyre, my death.

Never letting them find my trail,
It's only a mindless crowd that wants to slay,
Haven't hurt anyone but their ego
With not supporting their lies, long ago.

Preachers want to burn me alive,
To set my body on the agonizing torture,
When they are done with me they will find next victim,
Thinking someone's execution will be their cure.

Oh, fools, cure your ignorance,
Don't burn the book, inhale it in,
Hug the animal, stop chasing humans,
No one else is responsible for your sins.

-PRIVACY (2019)

Such a random voice becomes so eerie,
Closing myself, don't want you to see me
Like this, but you are daring
To push more into my privacy.
Don't wanna share it, you don't need to hear,
Informations reserved for someone's near,
You are just a stranger to me.

Why do you care what the hell I wear?
Why do you need to know why I am so scared?
Why do you need to know my love interest?
Who the hell are you so I have to confess?

Keep my privacy! You don't need to hear,
Pealing off the layers to satisfy curiosity,
My soul is naked, prone to vunerability,
So uncomfortable, you are roaming too deep.
I didn't ask you nor I want to know
Such a delicate questions of your soul,
So why would you be any different than me,
No more questions, hidding the privacy.

So you'll condemn me for my oppinion,
For the fact I enjoy to be alone,
You are digging too deep, deeper than my guts,
Can't even listen you without disgust.
You don't look like someone I should trust,
Bastard, your discretion is equall to dust.

(Curiosity may have killed a cat, but beware, it can also kill you)

Oh, go to hell, how do you dare
To ask without a shame what's not your freaken problem?
It's not a taboo, I simply don't trust you
And, unlike you, I know my borders!

-ALONE (2020)

All the words are here...
The whole story of my wasted life is written
Along with all the random thoughts,
Described even the source,
Wrote about the way that I will die,
Was it only part of the story, a lie?

I just want to run to the hills,
Run from everything, where other people never stepped,
Instead I stayed inside my world,
Lost myself inside, now there is no way out.
I can't even tell it, let alone to shout,
The more quiet I am more I am dying inside,
Trapped and lost in the maze of my mind.
Too late to be saved!

Could I be a human too?
Now I would never know it.
Gave so many chances to you,
But you never gave a chance to me.
Had so many people in my world,
It turns out here I have none,
The only thing I craved is empathy
Yet I will die alone.

When they talk behind my back
There are so many insults and degrading,
Yet, when I say how it really feels,
For them it is all nothing.

Wish I could send them all to hell
When they come to my grave!
If alive me wasn't good enough
How could my corpse be any better?!

Are we worth only how much we can give?
Are there only certain ones who deserve to live?
Now bury me, I don't mind it,
Put a gravestone above my head!
I've been numb for so long
That it feels like I am already dead.

-MAGIC OF LOVE (2012)

Look at me with your eyes
Colour of hazelnut, I want you
To give me a smile or I'll die alone.

You are the only human being
Who I need and dream about,
I need your embrace, I need your love.

One touch will start a magic, a magic of love,
We are flying to the higness like a couple of doves.
Just take my hand and dance with me now,
Behind us are sparkles, we are in magic of love.

My name sounds so different when you say it, and again
Burns a fire in my soul, I feel alive.
My heart doesn't know another one I have this magic with,
Without it I feel pain and die.

-DISCO BEAT (LET'S MAKE MAGIC) (2012)

If you don't know how to dance it,
Don't worry, just easy follow my feet,
A little spark is all what you need,
Let's move in the disco beat.

Everybody look your crazy style,
Everybody look your moving feet
Cause they're making magic,
Moving it to the disco beat.

One step forward, then right side,
One side back, then left with pride,
Move your hands, move your feet,
Moving it to the disco beat.

Disco dancers are star's shine,
They are crazy, they are fine,
Disco ball is sparking in me,
This crazy rythm I wanna feel.

-LIFE, DREAM, MAGIC (2012)

Life, be a part of my dreams,
Life, be a part of this magic.
Wings become white and crystal
Like snow on beautiful sky.
Life, be a part of my life.

Dream, be a part of this magic,
Dream, be a part of the world,
Mind becomes open and colorful,
Like something what child feels,
Dream, be a part of my dreams.

Magic, be in magic of dreams, on sky,
Dream, imagination never gonna die,
Life is someting what I share with you,
World becomes nice when you see the truth.

Cause when you connect this three things
You have a perfect life.

-MAGIC TRAVEL (2012)

We have done too many thing in moment,
We have done too many things in time,
Now is time to start a travel to galaxy
Where we will be happy, sadness gonna die.

Magic travel, make a magic life,
Next level now will start you and I,
Magic travel to the galaxy,
No farewell, you will be free with me.
Magic travel... Everything is well.

Turn off your bad feelings, stop thinking now,
This crazy galaxy is full of love,
And no more problems, we gonna crush them somehow,
Don't waste your energy, don't make it low.

Travel in the past, present and the future,
Will be magical, just look all this nature,
This magic nature will relax you and me,
This is our own galaxy.

-CHRISTMAS MAGIC (2012)

On the Christmas day light all candles,
A little crystal angel put in the middle,
Christmas is a holiday of a peace,
When everybody all love give.

In the Christmas day we gonna be together,
Be like one heart now and ever,
Christmas is a holiday of a family,
Now and always that will be.

Forget the sadness, forget the wars,
Now everybody is praying to God,
To give them a love, to give them a peace,
Happiness is all what you feel.
Connect your family, find your old friend,
Decorate your home to be red,
Everybody who you love give an embrace,
Just put smile on your face.

Christmas magic starts, Christmas carols we want,
Christmas tree is shinning tonight in this Christmas night.

-FLYING KISS (2012)

I sent you kiss, wait your mail,
Just I don't know when you can recieve this,
Maybe somebody had failed.

So kiss will fly everywhere
On the world, in the space,
In Europe, In Asia, In Australia, Africa and America,
Till touch your face.

Behind state of Liberty, Mount Rushmore, Niagara's waterfall and some waters more,
Above a cities and places and Hollywood,
Mountains, hills and a hundred woods,
Carneval and Opera, an ocean and seas,
Above deserts, above all the countries,
Cross the river and fields and everything
Just to kiss you from me.

Flying kisses are flying to space,
I hope that one had kissed your face,
Flying kisses are making your day.
La, la, la, la, la, la, la.

-DO YOU HAVE A HEART (2012)

Do you have a heart?
Do you have a heart?

From my life just left the pieces,
I stopped to be a dreamer,
No more I will imagine you and I,
In my stomach I will kill all butterflies.

You are evil, you are wrong,
I am idiot cause I let this love to be strong.

Stop to be like a robot, without a soul
I never want to be like you, like a plastic doll,
Once I was wrong, cause I made this love so strong.

Return my love, you don't have a heart,
Our magic stopped cause you don't have a heart,
Do you have a heart?
Do you have a heart?

-NEW YEAR'S PARTY BY ME (2012)

New year's night, I'm alone.
Outside is a cold winter with the snow,
And I am sad, I stay in bed,
It's not something very well.

I waited this night so long,
I had planned it a months ago,
But something is changed somehow,
And now I am alone, what should I do now?

Don't let this night go over, I just said I have a plan.
I will dance like a crazy girl, nobody has to understand.

New year is waiting me, waiting me,
Now I will dance, it's a New Year,
No cares, no problems, it's meant to be,
Alone I have a party, it's a New Year.

All my friends changed their plans,
They left me on this New Year's night.
I'm angry, I am very sick,
Those people are annoying, tomorrow there will be fight.

I'll find new friends, somebody who likes me,
I don't wanna sleep, I don't wanna go
Anywhere, party is over there,
I will have a party, just me, alone.

New year party by me (Hey)!

-IT'S NOT SO BAD (2012)

It's not so bad, it's not so bad,
Listen what I said,
It's not so bad, it's not the end of the world.
It's not so bad, it's not so bad,
Listen what I said,
It's not so bad, it's not the end,
The world is not destroyed. (Not the end of the world)

Stop to make me guilty, stop to make me sad cause
You know it's not so scary, you know it's not so bad.

World is still here, it's not destroyed, believe me,
Don't make me guilty, I am not your enemy.

We are still alive, we are still here,
Don't be so mad, with fault I couldn't live.

-I LIE (2012)

This is not my real smile,
That is just cover of what's real,
I feel so terrible, loneliness deep inside is killing me.

This is not a happiness, this is not my old life,
Don't ask me how I feel, I say good, believe me I lie.

I am flying, I am smiling, I am lying that I'm good.
I'm flying, but I'm crying and I'm lying, I'm not good.
I'm not good.

This is not a fairy tale, maybe dreams never come true,
People become so powerless and don't know what next to do,
This is not my real face, in darkness I cry,
Everything about my soul I lie, my dreams and hopes will die.

I lie! I lie!

-CAPRICORN (2012)
*for story "Capricorn's battle"

Some battles will never be lost...

Sometimes I'm falling down, sometimes I am sad and
I want to leave this town, find myself my own land.

I want to climb up on mountain,
I want to stay on top and say
Loud, I'll say so loud "This is the best day".

Because... Some battles will never be lost...
This is my battle, I live to my rules!

I am a Capricorn with the, with the little horns,
On the mountain I'm climbing up,
I am a Capricorn with the, with the great horns,
Go on top, never gonna stop.
I am a Capricorn, I know what I want,
Like a fairy dress in white,
I am a Capricorn, I know what I want,
Right now I want to catch the light.

-GHOST'S GRAVE (2013)

Stolen life is this ground, murder and guilty are fighting right now.
Victim and thief in one same grave,
The thief who stole the life.
Ravens are calling murder back, but only victim comes to night black,
Now it's quiet, only my ghost stays with the ravens at night.

Ravens on my grave start to sing their song,
Rain felt to the flower, this is journey long.
Don't paint night in black, it's already dark,
To the sky now are flying blue and purple spark.

-CHILD OF A MOON (2013)

(You are silent child of a rain)
I am a child of a moon,
(you let blood to kill your pain)
I'm going soon,
(you are innocence of the world)
I feel hopeless,
(Never let your soul to be sold)
Soul of sadness.

I took my first breath in the middle of the evening,
Of one depressing story that is just beggining,
On rainy winter night is born child of moon,
Why this innocence has to burn?

(You are light but you came from  dark,
You spent all your light, now you'll die)

Moon is my company, it makes me
Feel better, when I look at moon
I know salvation comes soon.
It was a winter night, rain and snow were connected,
This moon is my light, it's gonna call me back.

(Call the Moon tonight, let you heart shine bright, moon!)

-PNEUMATIC FANATIC (2013)

Silver strorm, metal and rock'n'roll
Make it burn, burning pieces from sky fall.

People around are dancing, they are in the trance,
Of metal and rock the biggest fans.
Rythm of guitar and heavy drums
So pheumatic, we are fanatics.

Under burning sky, the silver storm,
Those hearts want more metal and rock'n'roll.
Sound of guitar is singing with my soul,
So pneumatic, we are fanatics.

Stage is burning from energy, fire is circling around free,
There's no time to breathe, dance till you live.
Open both your eyes, in music there are no lies,
Metal sky looks fantastic, tonite I am pneumatic.

-ANSWER (2013 or 2012)

When your voice is calling me
Somewhere near I will be
I'll answer, I'll answer, I'm waiting.

When your voice is calling me
I will wait till I live
To answer, to answer, I'll do.

When my life enemy starts searching me,
When he wants to tell me hurting words secretly,
When enemy calls me to give up again
I won't answer, I won't answer, no, no.

If you are searching for me to complete my destiny,
I'll wait till I live, answer on your call here will be.

-FAR OF ME (2011)

When I am looking at sunset
I just want to feel that
That is it my sun, that is it my land,
My heart to my home I send.

I wanna be again there
Where flowers are everywhere
I don't wanna to die here.

You are part of me, I want again to see
This place which makes me free, everything I want,
Everything, I just want to come home.

-STOP THE MADNESS (summer 2012)

Clock in my soul says this is the last minute here,
You are praying, you are crying, I don't listen what you say.

My hand is hurt, my blood touches the ground,
Maybe it's a bad decision, another way I haven't found.

Can you see what I do, I don't even listen to you,
I feel so powerless...
Can you see I myself hurt, why you don't want to see the truth?
This is crazyness... Stop the madness...
Stop the madness!

My hand is hurt, my blood touches the ground,
Close your eyes, don't scream,
My soul is going round and round.

-IN YOUR HEART + REASON FOR LIFE (2012)

I can be all what you want,
I can be sweet or I can rock.
I can be all what you wish,
I can be princess or I can be witch.

Come on, talk with me, come on,
I wanna be your love,
I wanna be in your heart, it's so hard.

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And I'm so afraid that I can lose you,
That I can lose my mind
And I am so afraid that you can go away and you know why.
Cause you are my air, my water.
You are my everything, you are my reason for life.

Don't go! One time is enough, one life is enough.
Never gonna stop. My love!
One song is enough.
You are my reason for life.
You are my reason for life.
Don't go.

-MAGIC PLACE (2011)

I believe there will come a day
When I can say: "I feel so free in my mind."
I believe dreams come true,
But I don't know what I have to do
Where is this place? Can I find?

Forever, forever, I only wanted one
One thing is in my mind,
One place, one time I only want to find.
Forever, forever, in this magic place
I can live my fairytale,
I'm flying, I'm singing, I'll never gonna fail.

One, two, three, four, five, six, seven,
Magic place is my heaven.
One, two, three, four, seven, eight,
Magic place is my fate.

-WE LIVE IN COLOURS (2010 or 2009)

I like change, I like something new,
My favourite colour is blue,
The white kingdom of dreams is in my bed,
I like green, brown, purple, yellow and red.

We live in colours, oh, every day.
We live in colours, oh, yesterday that's what you said.
And it is okay.

-BRIDE (original idea from around 2004, lyrics from 2011)

Your love, I think that your love
Is so stronger now
When you see me in white,
With the flowers and and all this glow
I miss you, I still love you,
But in this moment I am powerless
And one little crystal tear is falling down on my wedding dress.

I must be happy, but I can't do it,
In my eyes are shining some tears,
From life I recieved a hit,
This day is so hard to me.

How could I look into your eyes,
How are you feeling,
I am a bride now,
His wife tomorrow I will be.

-DANCE WITH ME (2012)

Dance with me, it's my last dance,
Mind turn off, don't think of tomorrow,
I feel so calm, so you have a chance
To set me free, after this I must go.

Dance, make me happy,
Make me to feel a peace.
Dance, make me crazy,
Fullfil all my dreams.

Like the Earth be so peaceful,
Like a water beautiful,
Like an air be so easy,
Like a fire - don't be freezing.

-FLY (2011)

Catch an air with your hands,
Fly up to the sky,
Catch an air with your hands
And fly, and fly, and fly.

Run away to the field with flowers,
Run away to the paradise.
Fall down in grass, sleep deep,
In the dreamland relax your eyes.

When you wake up you can start jumping,
Fly away from the land,
You are in the nature, enjoy now,
You are free, do you understand?

You fly in the nature, you fly like a bird,
Enjoy your freedom, enjoy your freedom.

-BLACKBERRY (2011)

You are mysterious very and you are so scary,
You are like a blackberry.
Sour like a cherry, like a bloody Mery,
You are my blackberry.

Magic connection, and I'm the only one
Who sees something scary in your eyes,
You have passion, you keep the secrets,
And everyday I listen to your lies.

What's the secret of your heart?
You know I am smart
To feel it's dangerous.
(bad feeling very, dark like a blackberry)

I'm not safe cause I am scared
When night is everywhere,
Like a ghost you are behind me,
Where are you? I can't see.

Why your soul is so dark
Dangerous like a shark?
Do you care for my soul?
What are you feeling, do you know for fault?
Mysterious very, dark like blackberry.

-BY OTHER LIPS (spring 2013)

Now I know, everything I dream about
Now it's gone, It's dying in this town.
It's falling at one moment to the land,
It's disappearing like the pictures of you and me,
Now I know, there is a fear that soon I can see...

You, are you happy now?
I'm losing everything in this sad town...
Why am I losing you, my favourite dream?
If I see you my smile will become a fear
That your face is kissed by other lips.

Now I know, there is no other way.
Now is gone my chance for better day.
It's broken like my mind and my heart,
It's quiet, like silence of my mouth.
Now I know, I am not happy cause maybe I will see...

What fate's  gonna do with my confused mind?
I don't wanna other love, I don't wanna find.
He was my sun through these heavy years and
Did he guess how I love him, can he understand?!
Every dream with him painted my black days to red,
Now he is happy and I'm crying, I'm so sad.

Everything I would give to him, my heart and soul,
I'm crazy because I always believe then always fall.
Let's crush it all. I love...

Time cannot turn back... No... No...
I missed that... Ooooh!

-DISCO 20th CENTURY (2012)

I like 20th century, those were golden years.
When I think of present in my eyes are tears.
I like 20th century, it's an old fashion,
I want to see it, this is a temptation.

Dancing disco all the night,
Dancing on the floor and light
Is shinning, oh, the sparkling disco ball.
The disco ball sparks like moon,
We'll go to disco afternoon,
There are missing all the walls in your heart.

Song on jukebox starts now,
Just dance, don't ask me how,
Music is playing, oh, do you feel?
Give me hands and dance with me,
Don't think, we are free,
This song has a rythm which kills, so real.

Boogie'n'disco are still cool,
My heart feels so full,
I touch sky with my hand.
Catch the drum and guitar,
We became a disco stars
We can make our own band, it's new trend.

-WHAT'S HAPPENING TO ME (2012)

We are sparkling in the dark, I can see the sparks,
In my stomach and eyes are the butterflies.
Don't worry, I'm a guard, I keep love in my heart,
Only for you is there, for you I always care.

Happening, what is happening to me?
Why I change my mind?
What is name of that what I feel?
It makes me fly, it makes to fly away,
I'm happy cause I found you,
I think of you whole day.

In the past I was sad, now my world is red,
I feel I wanna fly with butterflies.
Don't worry, I'm a guard, only you have my heart,
You are prince on the white horse
My mind, my soul, all is yours.

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The End of the part one
Suzana Ristic Suza
To be continued...