Stories that I am (more or less) proud of

 

Contrary to the previous list, where I criticized some of my stories and how they were written, in this one I will highlight the ones that are better written, the ones that I would probably recommend first or that I return to most often. I will try to be objective and focus on the plot and its dynamics, characters, meaningfulness, and not on the ones that I personally like the most or that I read the most.

- GOLD AND ASH

So far this is perhaps my best story, I absolutely love everything about it: the idea, the characters, the plot, the ending. It has a weight that I love in a story, a tragic part that leaves an impression, but at the same time there is something that leaves hope even after that. It might bother some that the main characters Asya and Emil aren't in a relationship, but for me it adds extra depth to the story because she became a member of his family after he lost all the other members of his large family. I know that some people would resent Emil's choice of soulmate, but I wanted to have at least one male character who declares that way because I already had female characters who are part of the LGBT population, I personally don't mind and whoever does doesn't even have to read this story . Through my works, I want to create a place where everyone is equal and accepted, when I can't change the inequality around me, then at least I can have such a world in my stories, and whether someone considers something to be sick or whatever is not my problem (after all , how many of us live with some health and/or mental problem, should we be killed too if we are not suitable for this society? As far as I know history, a certain dictator once tried to create a "perfect nation" and we know that period as the worst period in recent history) . Now that's another topic (which I had to mention because of the next story on the list), and "Gold and Ash" in any case remains among my best works that I would usually recommend to those who want to read one of my stories.

- CRIMSON BLUE SNOW

Unlike the previous story, in this one the love story of two people of the same gender is the main focus, but the point of the story is not really in Amadea and Beata's relationship. It shows the tragedy of when we finally find something we would call happiness (even if everything was hopeless before that), and then tragic circumstances occur that destroy it completely. With Sage and Alton ("Artists Live Forever"), their relationship and how they spent time together was not described in detail (it's a shame, they are one of my favorite couples and I would have liked more details), we could have even more difficult emotions in stories, I made up for it here and wrote the longest story up to that time. It could have been even better, since Amadea is a character similar to me, then she is too restrained and that sometimes bothers me while reading, and the writing was difficult at first, I was worried if there would be anything from the story. Luckily, the plot takes such a turn towards the end and gets one of the most tragic descriptions in all of the stories, I think it's obvious by now that I'm primarily a drama writer so that heavy feeling is important. For me, the story is great if for a while after reading I don't know where I am, you could say that "Crimson Blue Snow" leaves such an impression.

-THE HELL WITH LUCK 

Although it is shorter than the average story, it still deserves to be on the list because it has a dynamic that may be missing in some longer stories, as well as a balance between the action and the psychological state of the character - in many stories I concentrate more on one or the other, here is Hjordis' sudden misfortune described both through the world around her and through the deterioration of her psyche. The part with Betari adds a slight chill and makes this black magic story complete.

- TEAM BLUME - THE END OF THE UNIVERSE

Right now this is my last story, I'm satisfied with it but I don't need to write something new (it comes to my mind from time to time, but I give up). In the story, I added various information from the domain of astronomy, as well as various theories from the domain of science, in order to create as complex a story as possible (the same was true for the first part, except that there was the domain of philosophy and sociology, but I think that this part is more complex than the first). There are dynamics in the plot and interaction with the characters, there is always something going on and the ending leaves mixed feelings. For me, this story has a heavy feeling because I was writing the end of the third chapter and the beginning of the fourth chapter (ie the part where in the story they tell me that my parents are not alive after ten years of my absence) early in the morning of the eighteenth of July 2022 when my parents had a truck accident, I already wrote on the blog that during the accident my father injured his internal organs (probably also a hernia that he had before) which cost him his life after a few months. Every time I read that part I feel guilty that I brought them a bad luck that day, I was always afraid that something would happen if I thought something negative and I kept shutting my brain so I wouldn't mess them up while they were on the road, I wasn't even sure should I write that part while they're not here even though we had a lot of work then so I wanted to use the free time (ironically, after that we didn't even work with the figures at all, except for those few until his condition got completely worse, but then until April I took care of to him). Maybe there is something missing in the story or something is redundant, but I wouldn't mind even finishing writing stories with this story as the last one, although last year I tried to start one similar to "Dream reaper" and "Kingdom of Eternal Darkness" and I tore the pages because the beginning was too uninteresting and pointless. When it comes to art, I don't make plans, if I have an idea worthy of writing I might write it down, for now I publish music because it suits me better.

- ONYX

The oldest story on this list (with the fact that I'm also satisfied with "Ready for Action", but I don't want it to be overrated because I mentioned Black as a character most often and there are two more parts), written in a different style than the stories up until then. There is also a second part "Onyx-Fire in the Wings", just to write what happened after that because not everything was said in the first story, but I think that the sequel did not meet my expectations. The sequel was planned while I was still in high school, it would have been much more difficult and who knows if Onyx as a character would have survived at the end (knowing how I write), but here I didn't want to end the story with negativity even though I don't know how to write happy stories. However, I wrote the first part more maturely than many other stories even though I was sixteen years old, and it deserves to be on this list.

-BREAKDOWN OF THE SYSTEM 

Although it was written in just two days and may not be the most original story on this list, it will always be one of my better ones. It contains several socio-psychological themes and each of these problems destroys the Philward family by weakening each of its members separately (more detailed analysis in the afterword of the story), unlike in "The Hell With Luck" here we have a mess under the surface from the very beginning. The dynamics of the plot are present, tragic events begin already somewhere around the middle and towards the end being replaced by a feeling of melancholy.

Stories that I find solid (or that I personally love) or that other people have praised:

- Moon and Sun

- Artists live forever

-Black Follower (Black Follower - Evil Is Eternal)

- Fashion's Seven 1 and 2

 

It can be noticed that there is not a single story in the list where I am the main character (except Team Blume), the reason is that I am embarrassed to praise those stories because they served more to write my morbid thoughts. "13 Deaths" might be on the list, maybe also "Buried in the Past" and "The Devil's Town" (I don't know about "The Red Stain", for me "It will never get better" and "The Red Stain" are significant but that doesn't matter with quality or action), yet I only mention them like this, with a note. I'm not sure about the mentioned stories because they are more based on a depressive philosophy and the plot is not the main focus - for example, "Buried in the Past" is set in a week and the only events are a suicide attempt, a hospital scene, interactions at school, an argument at houses and committing suicide, but my thoughts are the carrier of the plot, not the events in the story. It is the same with other personal stories, suicide or attempted suicide is the culmination of the plot, but that philosophical part is the main part of the story, I would recommend it only to people who like to read such things.