Dream Reaper (2019) - full story
The story is not suitable for under the age of 16.
* depressing scenes
* Potentially shocking / disturbing scenes
* Mildly explicit scene
* depressing scenes
* Potentially shocking / disturbing scenes
* Mildly explicit scene
"Dedicated to all who have separated their precious time to read my stories, as well as to the characters of these stories that have become part of my world. In that name, I want to redeem everyone for everything they had to go through in their stories. Everyone... but one character. "-SRS
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05/05/2019 yr
It's not the first time I've put "The End" at the end of a story, even more so, I've done it many times to date. Was that okay? Probably. Was the end the way it should be? Certainly not . I still have the power to change things, I love that magnificent thing in writing - it does not have to be the end of the story until the writer determines that the end is and I still did not want to put an end to it, so there is something else that must be told . The end in the story or the movie does not mean anything, we just need the author of that work to revive his world and give it a new end, so I wanted to take the pen again in my hands and change things while I still exist, because no one does know me better than myself.
Day replaced the night two hours ago, making my quest for the perfect place easier. The birds fluttered to the nearby branch, singing their cheerful melodies and marveling at me as I dig a small hole in the land, which slowly grew bigger. I've heard the steps behind. Sue joined me.
Me: "Hey, aren't you getting ready for a new story?" Sue: "I can't, I'm real as you, I can't go anywhere." I: "Exactly ... you are me, you can not go anywhere. Have at least others got ready?" Sue: "Yes, they are all very excited! You will have a lot of work, you know, there are over 200 characters you have to to leave here. " I: "It does not matter, it's worth the effort. I'm the only one who can finish it." Sue (sigh): "What will you do with the lyrics?" I: "I published them as poetry. It was too hard, as if someone pulled my heart into pieces and hit them with a hammer. There was no other choice." Sue (looks around): "You've found a nice place, it's quiet. Perfect place to spend eternity. " I: "Yes, I just do not know how to carry out the whole plan, I can only finish it halfway myself. It seems that there are still things I can not do by myself." Sue (laughter): "To fix the TV?" I (smile): "I was thinking about this, but let it be, I probably don't know that neither." Sue: "Nobody is almighty, there are so many things you know, it would be hard to know everything, right?" Me: "Yes, Sue ... Yet if I knew how to be a human being, that would be better ..." Sue: "You knew, then you forgot, but it does not matter anymore because we are close to the end of the story. " Me: "Technically, if we look only at this story we are at the beginning. If we look at all the others ... well, there we are in the end. It's a strange feeling, especially when you're doing something for years and then you're planning to stop. Maybe I'll miss this, maybe I will not ... It does not matter anyway. "Sue:" Just let your works exist, the rest is not important. Mortal lives are passable anyway. " Me: "Right."
She stared at the distance while I dug the hole deeper and then gently asked: "And, how will you do the story?" I: "I'll connect some characters while I leave some as in original. In any case, I want to give everyone a happy ending. The Kingdom of the Dead will no longer exist, especially not the Kingdom of the Eternal Darkness, this place must not exist anymore. The time is for all the characters to get their happy ending. " Sue: "Except for one." I (look down): "Except for one. For this character, the end is something that she wants, so there is no problem. She will fulfill her long- year desire, that would be enough to her.
"YEAR'S SEASONS I", "YEAR'S SEASONS II", "YEAR'S SEASONS III"
Sue: "We have your first story," Year's seasons I, "which actually has a positive end, but that's why at the beginning of the second book all the characters from the first part are dying, so you have eight characters in the Kingdom of Good from the beginning, two characters from the end of the second part and three villains. What is the plan for the princesses of the Golden Kingdom? " Me: "Hm, since they control the weather it will remain their function, they will remain as a part of the legend of the seasons."
-In the distant kingdom, far from our civilization, four sisters lived with their spouses, controlling the weather and seasons. As their children inherited their power and got their duties they took over the southern hemisphere of the Earth, so their descendants remained in charge for the northern part of the planet. King Day and Queen Year were placed in their kingdom too, all together would meet once during the year at the magnificent ceremony, marked as the beginning of the new year, celebrating the unification of the three generations of princes and princesses of weather. Princesses also had four pets which were always with them, just like in the Golden Kingdom, their lives were calm and without problems. They lived happily in harmony as long as there was time and seasons and, knowing our beautiful planet , the Princesses of the Golden Kingdom will forever take care of the weather on our only planet and maintain a balance on it. "
-In the distant kingdom, far from our civilization, four sisters lived with their spouses, controlling the weather and seasons. As their children inherited their power and got their duties they took over the southern hemisphere of the Earth, so their descendants remained in charge for the northern part of the planet. King Day and Queen Year were placed in their kingdom too, all together would meet once during the year at the magnificent ceremony, marked as the beginning of the new year, celebrating the unification of the three generations of princes and princesses of weather. Princesses also had four pets which were always with them, just like in the Golden Kingdom, their lives were calm and without problems. They lived happily in harmony as long as there was time and seasons and, knowing our beautiful planet , the Princesses of the Golden Kingdom will forever take care of the weather on our only planet and maintain a balance on it. "
Sue: "It's okay. So, they are alive?" I: "Yes. Nelly and Mion are also in their part of the Earth hemisphere, since in the third part there is a third generation so there are enough of them, here they are also in charge of the winter. That's why it's the coldest in Antarctica; they have two princesses of winter. " Sue (laughs): "You are really silly, but the idea is great! What about the villains?" I: "I'll introduce them to some other characters, they can have a better purpose. Let's go on."
"PALACE IN THE DESERT"
I: "The only character that is officially in the Kingdom of the Dead is Mayra, who in the meantime has become Raul's wife so I will not separate them, I have a better idea for them. There is also Lara, who will be in Egypt, but as the best friend of our warrior from the "Capricorn's battle" Beli. The rest of the team went well, everything is more or less OK, except the Mayra's and Marie's parents, which I will mention later.
"7 SISTERS"
Sue: "Here everything is perfectly finished as well, except Ella who still suffers from depression. What will we do with her?" I: "With the help of her sister's and Ed's support, Ella managed to greatly alleviate her symptoms of depression. The birth of the first child gave her and Ed much joy, but also that she had become aunt before it, since all the married sisters in the meantime got children. The Dafny stayed at her decision and remained single, Leyla found her soul mate later and Emily's grumpy nature was "tamed" by a very average young man who thought her sarcasm is cute, so each of the Princesses of the Flower Kingdom lived happily for the rest of her life." Sue:" Wow, it's so sweet. You'll make me cry, you know, I thought this would be a morbid story. " Me: "On the contrary, it will be completely positive (laughter) ... at least as long as I take my dear friends to the new story. We'll see for the rest. I care only only for their sake now."
"SERBIAN STORY ABOUT LENA AND TEODOR"
Sue: "Let me see you now! I'm just wondering what will happen to our compatriots - will you bring them back to the past?" I: "No, I will fulfill Teodor's desire."
-The village household echoed with the voices of the children who were playing under the care of their mother Lena. The time of lunch, Teodor was supposed to arrive every minute. The tractor is heard, that means he's coming, so the two brothers and their younger sister run to the gate where Teodor entered the yard, hugged the children and together with them entered inside for lunch. This time the couple found their place in a more recent time, the other characters from the village were around them so they no longer had to fear the wars and destruction, but they could live peacefully and in dignity now. They could feel the magic of a new era and get acquainted with technology and machines that greatly ease agricultural activities and at the same time to maintain a tradition and be in touch with nature. And besides all this, which is most important, their love was as strong as the first day.
"CAPRICORN'S BATTLE I, II"
Sue: "Strange, but true, all the characters had a positive the end here." I: "Not all - Holly's parents, Raul and Raun. I have a place for all of them. We will get to that."
"SKY AND EARTH"
I: "Since I have already come to the point where I can tell you the story, then I will do it now because we have queen Neily and her husband here. We have elves as well, but they will become beings who will peacefully live in the hidden parts of nature so they won't have any evil within."
- In the suburbs of a peaceful city lived a friendly neighborhood: there were plenty of children, their parents, but also the older couples who liked that children as their own grandchildren. In one house lived Natasha, a little girl with short brown hair and brown eyes, originally from Russia, and right next to her was her best friend, the boy of the most beautiful black hair and the piercing blue eyes she had ever seen. It was Blackhaired's son. As their moms had tea on the terrace they played in front yard, occasionally they would go to the nice older lady and older men across their houses. They say, they also have grandchildren from a son whom their daughter Holly took care of when he was small, same as she took care of her sister, so they are glad when Natasha and her friend come to their house to visit. There was another house where Neily was, who considered Blackhaired her sister, she kept a quiet life with her husband knowing that the Kingdom of Sky and Earth was on safe. Next to their house were also Marie and Maribel's parents, another one couple in middle age.
They spent their lives in a harmonious community where there were no curses, conflicts, death, illness or revenge, and that was what everyone wanted.
They spent their lives in a harmonious community where there were no curses, conflicts, death, illness or revenge, and that was what everyone wanted.
"PRINCESS BLACKHAIRED"
Sue: "So, the Blackhaired is now in a quiet environment ... that's nice. Maybe she will meet some nice "prince"? (Laughs)" Me: "All in time. There could remain that option, but I know that now she is really happy because she deserved to be with her son as far as possible from the Kingdom of the Dead. With Henry we already know that everything was fine after all, so I have nothing to add to this story. "
"READY FOR ACTION!" (BEFORE THE END, BLACK'S DIARY) "
Sue: "This will be interesting - you have to put one of the most recognizable characters from your story somewhere and it must be something strong, otherwise you miss the point. Let's hear what you have."
-The six motorbikes were rushing to the horizon, making asphalt under their wheels burn and bend like plastic from the power of mighty machines. They sped out as powerful as the rulers of the roads, with their strength making the plants along the road to obey their grandiosity. Break. Bikers descended from the motorbike to take a short walk.
They take helmets down. If you thought that the original setup of "Ready For Action?!" was there you didn't guess right. As you know White is with Ling, Green is away, Blue is a wild surfer and Rose is a business woman. So,who's the "Ruler of the Roads" with Red and Black?
Storm takes off the helmet first, and after it her husband Raun does the same. Raun: "This is a really great feeling, it makes me feel calmer to drive like this." His brother Raul and Mayra are removing helmets right after them. Mayra: "Red, Black, you really know how to live! Too bad we were not in the same story before, it would be very fun." Raul: "This is a great way to control our wild and evil side, I would never think of it!" Storm: "Where will we go after?" Red: "Edna is waiting us in one alternative club, we're going to rock all night!" Black: "I'll pick up a guy and have a concert with him alone. (wink) " Storm (laughter):" You're wicked... (to Raun) Do you want us to go with the motorbikes by the beach after the gig? " Raun (kisses her):" Wherever you want, baby. " Red (laughs): "Uh, it looks like it's going to be a good night tonight!" Mayra (moves closer to Raul): "It seems so. Sun is already going away, let's go slowly and the rest will set up by itself, I can not wait to go on some awesome gig! " Raul (embraced her): "Of course, we are moving right now, no chance I would miss a good time with awesome music!"
In the evening, Edna sat at the bar and drank a cocktail. Bartender: "Some special occasion?" Edna: "Today I'm becoming adult, so I can legally buy a drink. (Laughter) "Barmen (laughter):" Congratulations, but watch out for the amount, these are strong drinks. "Edna:" Of course, I will not exaggerate. (thought) If I could only for my birthday get a person who would mean to me as much as Stefany... I'm glad she found soulmate, I hope someday I'll find somebody too ... "
At the moment everyone in the club looked at the door- the perfect black-haired girl of a gentle face and ice-blue eyes entered the club. All the guys wanted to have her but she did not care much about it, she headed for Edna. "Hey, is the place next to you occupied?"- she said to Edna. Edna (spluttering): "No... nope ... Feel free to sit." Girl (gives her a hand): "I am Weber." Edna: "I am Edna.(gives her hand) You have a nice name ... and hair ... and eyes ... you're really beautiful. I've never seen such a beautiful girl. " Weber: "When a sweet girl like you tells me that, then it really is a compliment." Edna:" Well, Weber, where are you from? What story? " Weber: "The Black Follower -Evil is Eternal. Writer has fixed me up a little bit, now I am a human being. You are from "Fashion Seven"?" Edna: "Yes... How do you know? " Weber: I've heard some nice things about you and I want to get to know you better, if you want it, of course. " Edna (blushing):" In what sense, as a friend or ... " Weber (gently kissing her): "I will be your eternal love. I know you love girls and along with that you are an alternative, my eternity will be with you." Edna: "I must have drank too much ... this is too good to be true. You are so perfect, and you want me? " Weber: "Yes, you. I'm made for you, just as Alton was created for Sage. Come on, let's go to some dark and creepy place." Edna (laughs): "I love the dark and creepy places. Let's go, I know an old castle near the city, we will be able to talk in peace and quiet. " Weber: "Sounds great. It's a little noisy here, I'm not used to loud music, in my story I was mostly active in silence." Edna (wink to her): "Then we have to go to some concert together." Weber (grabs her hand): "Well, we'll go wherever you want, it's only important for us to have a good time!" Edna: "Thanks to the Writer who gave you to me, my eternity will now be perfect."
Sue (looking at me): "Wow. Weber and Edna ... wicked, man." I: "Yes, it's a reward for having to die in the second episode, plus Weber was my crush, I want to leave her in good hands. (laughs) " Sue:" Well, it's not a bad plot. Nothing too long, straight to point." Me:" Yes, anyway readers know that I'm creating the characters the way I want to, so I wanted to speed things up. (laughs)" Sue:" I know, you want it to be clear. That would be all for "Ready for Action?!", now goes the "Short Stories," in which we have the story "The Stone of Stumble". You put it that the girl is called Natasha, those people who were killed in the story are also in their suburbs, but where is the emperor? " Me: "He is now the honest Mayor of that city." Sue: "Fair, now we'll move to the story that's also the part of collection, but you published it separately."
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"MOON AND SUN"
-The legend says that the male and female energies of the Moon merged and created the unbreakable relationship from which the stars were born, celebrating the love of Jin and Yang with their beauty and continuous glittering, but far from them there was a lonely star that shone stronger than all, stronger even than the whole galaxy. As they could they not create another such grandiose star they wanted to find the male Sun's energy so the Sun would not spend her life in solitude. They had already quit the quest when the Sun suddenly turned blue, signifying the arrival of new energy, and then returned to its original state, but that's why there has remained the energy of yang to rule on the largest star of all along with the female energy of jin. From that day, Sun Jin and Sun Yang together illuminate the entire galaxy together. "
Me: "What do you think?" Sue: "You've gone into the genre of fantasy, which is kind of logical for this story. It's important that everyone is happy and Sun is no longer a lonely star in the sky." Me: "Yes ... What's next?" Sue: "The Black Follower is next on the list, but better wait when we get to the second part. Next is " Magical girls", where everything is fine and they are all happy at the end, and then again "Ready for Action" which we have already finished and, at the end of this catastrophic 2012, we have Onyx." Me: "Okay, let me write for her too - she has remained in her leading position." Sue: "So, she did not marry Kevin?" I: "They are married, they have become perfect tandem and their work goes well. The end does not have to be mysterious, it was right time to give this amazing girl a happy ending. I'm proud of her." Sue: "Guess who is next on the list. " Me: "Our dear friend Melody the Grumpy. We'll return to her later, she's probably nervous about her literature life changing completely." Sue: "She leaves too?" Me: "She is our alter ego, not our future, we have no need to destroy her because of our problems. That was her purpose- to keep us away from reality and make us a company, I am so sorry that she completely fell down with me , you know how great she was and helped everyone. She did not deserve this torture. " Sue:" I agree. The next one is, if we do not count "RFA?" , "The Scale of Sanity". Lana had her happy end, but ... " I:" What? " Sue:" What's up with us? We were there too." Me: "Melody will leave, I told you that, but you and I can not, we are real." Sue: "Damn it. That means that there is nothing of my story?" I: "Slowly, we did not get to it. Now one of the most difficult stories, "Breakdown of the system", is going on.
"BREAKDOWN OF THE SYSTEM"
-Library, the perfect empire of books. Thousands of books neatly arranged on shelves are waiting for them to be read and leave their mark in one's mind. Some are there to inspire, some to educate, some to reach to one's emotions, but all are equally worthy and hide their little, perfect world inside.
-Library, the perfect empire of books. Thousands of books neatly arranged on shelves are waiting for them to be read and leave their mark in one's mind. Some are there to inspire, some to educate, some to reach to one's emotions, but all are equally worthy and hide their little, perfect world inside.
At the reception is Becky, a high school student that volunteers in the library and helps her friend Clodita, who is also engaged in painting and occasionally holds exhibitions, on which she gets help by Lucy, Becky's mother.Becky has support in everything from her mother and has a good relationship with her, same as with older daughter Teyna and Teyna's husband Joseph, who have a daughter Bella and plan for more children in the future. There is also Harold, head of the family, a faithful husband who loves his family more than everything in the world. They live calmly, without dramatic events as a real, consonant family, as it should have been from the beginning. Lucy and Harold enjoy playing with their granddaughter while taking care of their daughters, yet giving them the freedom to be what they are. They are proud of their children and on the fact that they have raised two smart and good daughters, hoping that Bella will one day become like them. So, I leave Philward family and Becky's new friend Clodita in this story, far from the accidents they encountered in the original version. "
Sue: "So, Philward's family is now back together? Haven't Harold and Bella been left in the life, why are they here?" I: "How do you expect the two of them to be happy if they lost the closest ones? Because in the story you can merge the characters you want, then you can use it in the best way and I wanted to reunite the Philward family, while to Becky I left her friend because I think she fits nicely into this new story, she can run a library with Becky and be an artist. You see, the left-handed people are considered good artists, but during the Middle Ages they were proclaimed as witches, thus accusing us for things that we did not do and killing us in the worst ways, and all this just because we use the left hand more! That's why Clodita died, she knew that they would humiliate her and still condemn her, so I put her in a time when left-handedness was accepted and where she could use her talents." Sue: "I like it, it would be a real shame to bring her back to the middle ages when she would be better here, plus she has the best friend in the world. Good, let's go on, the next is "Fashion's seven"."
"FASHION'S SEVEN"
Sue: "As we have three characters who were killed, from that you have put Edna in a new story, we have to put somewhere sisters Kety and Monique who suffered from eating disorders. I suppose you will not return them to that hell." Me: "No way, the point is to give them a happy ending, not to torture them for the rest of eternity."
Sue: "As we have three characters who were killed, from that you have put Edna in a new story, we have to put somewhere sisters Kety and Monique who suffered from eating disorders. I suppose you will not return them to that hell." Me: "No way, the point is to give them a happy ending, not to torture them for the rest of eternity."
-A preparing of a fashion show is in progress, everyone is busy preparing everything to be perfect. Near the runway stands the designer of this collection Kety, while her sister Monique does a catwalk on the runway. Monique: "When will you try to wear one of your creations as a model? You would be a great model!" Kety:" Meeh, I prefer to design, plus I'm the editor of a fashion magazine with you ... I'm happy. Finally we can spend time with each other, we haven't been together a lot since childhood. " Monique (smile): "I missed my little sis too." Kety: "Little?! Hey, I'm more serious than you! (laughs) You're the one who wanted to go to the amusement park to buy cotton candy and stuffed teddy bear! " Monique: "And you're still having posters on the walls!" (laughter) " Kety:" Ha, ha, very funny ... I still behave more seriously than you. " Monique: "Sorry, I miss my childhood, I spent more on runaways than with toys, I want to make up for everything." Kety (smile): "Do not worry, we'll make up for everything."
The next model showed up on the runway. The tall blonde of a slightly cold appearance and blue eyes walked self-confidentially, freezing everything around her with her glance, but that glance was the only icy thing about her as her evil powers vanished at the transition to a new story. Kety asked her: "Hey, Frea, will you go with us for lunch later?" Frea: "Of course, I'm craving a double portion of ice cream. There's still a defile of all designs and we can go." Monique (Kety): "She seems dangerous, but she's actually pretty nice." Kety: "Yes, who would say that she was a villain in another story - now there is no trace of evil left of it." Frea comes to them: "After the fashion show is over we can go to the premiere of the new Lunata's movie, it will be great! A total of seventy people worked hard on it, everyone will come to the premiere of the movie." Monique: "Great opportunity to bring some of your creations, Kety. " Frea: "Absolutely! By the way, the Lunata asked me to ask you about the creation she would wear at the premiere, so you will be able to promote your collection on that way as well." Kety: "I'll prepare a glamorous dress for her , while the three of us will be dressed solemnly, but still casually. Let's go to lunch now, tomorrow after the show we will choose the creations for the premiere. "
Sue: "So, they're still in the fashion industry ... How comes that Frea becomes a model?" I: "Frea looks like a perfect model, it's better than freezing people and smashing their heads, she fits perfectly for it. On the other side, Lunata was inspired by Marilyn Monroe, so it is logical for her new life in the story to be tied to acting, while those seventy people who worked on the film are seventy victims from the second part of the "Black Follower". You see, I haven't forgot them neither." Sue:" And Chaina is still there ... Hurry up a bit, she can hardly wait to see her "beast"! (laugh)" I (laugh): "We have not reached that yet! Do not worry, we'll get to this soon. If I'm not mistaken, the collection "Amortica, Manica, Gothica" is going next. Keila and Lex are remaining the couple, Iris has already got a positive end and ... well, let's go on, now it would go "Fashion's seven" but I finished it ..." Sue: "And Gothica? Will not you say anything about the main character?" I (shivering):" She will get what she deserves... soon. I always forget that "Fashion's seven" goes after "Amortica, Manica, Gothica", I sort of always mix the order. It's nothing terrible, it's important that I do not forget anyone, and now goes a character who really deserves some reward for what she has experienced in her story- Shell."
"DEPTH OF THE DEEPEST THOUGHTS"
- Sixteen-year-old Shell gently opened the door of her house, looking around at home to see if anyone else was present. Her mother was in the kitchen, she prepared the cake visually excited. She said, "Mom, is it a some holiday today or ?... "Mother: "Your sister graduated from college, I want to surprise her with her favorite cake. " Shell: "It's great news! I can not wait her to arrive, I want to congratulate her! Where is Dad?" Mother: "He went to buy something for our other smart girl... do not say I told you, I'll ruin the surprise, but he is going to get you a new computer, there's no point to use the old one- how to deal with programming without proper equipment? It makes no sense to be among the best in school, at least we can provide you that. " Shell: "You should not have been wasting money, I would have managed to work with that old computer ..." Mother: "Do not worry, we're good financially at the moment, and we believe in you. Just be good as you were until now." Shell (huggs her): "The greatest reward for me is that you are here with me and knowing that I will never stay alone." Mother: "Of course, honey, we will always be there for you, our family can survive everything together. Anyway, how is your school, do you have any problems? " Shell: "No, I'm fine with everyone, I have no problems with other students." Mother: "I'm glad to hear that. (hears the door) That must be your sister, let's congratulate her together." Shell (smile): "Let's go."
Sue: "You gave Shell the only thing she wanted all her life ... I think she's happy." Me: "She deserves a normal life in a normal family, I gave it to her. No more bullying at school, no murder and trauma nor careless guardians who didn't care about her. This will be the best for this nice girl. " Sue: "We are leaving her now to enjoy her new literal life and move on to a tricky character..." I: "Klarissa. The character who has never been better, very similar to Sage and Melody. It will be a challenge to write her a new story."
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"WEAKNESS", "DYING AGAIN"
Klarissa and Agnetha (formerly known as "Nonamed") sat in the garden of a café and talked. Agnetha: "Now you can do everything you've always wanted and what you couldn't do in the last story." Klarissa: "I know, I just ... I never wanted anything, my entire role was to self-destruct and eventually change Hedrich. What did you want?" Agnetha: "Well... you know...seems that I did not have any desire in my story neither. You know what? I know how to play guitar - let's make a band and at the same time to travel around the world and meet new, interesting people, what do you think? " Klarissa: "I do not know how to play, but I can go with you, no problem." Agnetha: "Great, all our lives we were trapped in our own psyche and now we will be free on the whole planet. When are we going?" Klarissa: "Um ... Now?" Agneta: "Now?" Clarissa: "Well ... yes, why not. Will you?" Agnetha: "Let's go!" Klarissa: "Really?" Agnetha: "Really. We're free to do what we want, let's make our story positive." Klarissa (laughs): "Let's go then, there are so many nice things that we should see, so many people we should meet, so many reasons why it's worth staying in this story." Agnetha: "If you don't get bored of me in the meantime (laughter)" Klarissa: "You are my best friend, there is no way you'll be boring to me. It's a time for new adventures, let's use our eternity and, for the first time since our creation, to see how it feels to be happy and to feel alive." Agnetha:" It's time, let's not lose any moment of our literary eternity, time to go to a whole new world. (coming out of the cafes and heading to an unknown direction) It's time for our story to get a happy ending. "
Sue: "What happened to our detached Klarissa?" I: "She was dead, now I have returned her back to life and taken away her suffering and fear, giving her the will to discover this planet, along with Agnetha who had a similar destiny like her. There are really wonderful things in this world, "The Home for Animals" opened my eyes when it comes to our planet, it's so fascinating. I want them to see at least some of the wonders of our wonderful planet, so I sent them in the adventure." Sue:" Unexpected but interesting. You've hooked up the characters of "Weakness" and "Dying Again". As "Behind the Monitor Screen" is a part of the thinking rather than a story with a certain action, the following is..." I: "... Do not tell me (I take alcohol from a bag and take several sips)" Sue:" You drink again? Haven't you stopped? " Me:" I don't know anymore. That story can not be fixed at all, no chance. " Sue: "What about those characters who died in it?" I: "They are a reflection of people who have really ended their lives, wish that they are just characters of the story so I can bring them back and give them a happy ending. Let's not talk about the "Devil's town", there is nothing to say and fix. "Sue:" The next story - "Magic of the Night." "
"MAGIC OF THE NIGHT"
-Four powerful creatures led the cycle on Earth with their powers of regulating space, time, life and death. Wizard controlled the time-it had to go on and never return back, otherwise the whole existence of time would be led in a question. Aurelia was in charge of space- like Aurelia was a mortal, so the space could have been destroyed and yet would be untouchable for human because it represents a mixture of tangible and spiritual- it is impossible to possess it in its entirety, but only a small part that our hands can touch. Melina determines destiny of a newborn life and shows him the way to go; to some she inclines the brightest way, while to someones gives a thorny path full of wild beasts. The only sure thing is that, in the end, every time is waiting The Black Follower who takes away all the souls from this world and thus closes the cycle of life. Many souls are afraid of that creature to which each of us goes, but she is inevitable and does not represent either good or evil, but the inevitable end of existence of the each individual. "
Sue: "You're darkening again ... Wasn't this supposed to be a positive part of this story?" Me: "You like it or not, that's reality. Thought... which is the core of my depression, reason why am I here where I am. You know what will happen at the end of this story, so I think this was appropriate and, at the same time I have put four people who own magic to positions that suit them. Isn't it logical that I make the most powerful creature in charge of what is waiting all of us and what are many people afraid of? I do not know anyone better for that task than the Black Follower. " Sue: "Exactly, it makes sense. I'm not saying it's bad, I just do not want you to fall into melancholy until we put all the characters in a story with a happy ending." I: "I will not, I can maintain myself at least till I finish it. By the way, priest from the same story got his place in the catedral, but this time as a person devoted to religion and not greedy for power. The man killed by Aurelia is also with him in the catedral and helps him." Sue: "Now you're probably thinking about your favorite couple from the stories?" I (smile): "Oh, yes. It's the time for the musical part of my stories ..." Sue: "You mean, love part .... (laughter) " I:" Music is my love, so your answer is accepted."
"THE ARTISTS LIVE FOREVER"
I: "Since Hale, Reydan and Shade have a good en, then I'm left to create a scene with Alton and Sage so they also get their part of the story away from the Kingdom of the Dead. With that, I can add something that is missing in their story... (cough)"
-In a full concert hall, Sage and Alton held their concert- piano performance of arias, it was as created for them so they both could perform and do what they liked. Although both loved and stronger music, they felt an unbreakable connection while performing a classic music on the stage - every exchanged glance was a new impetus of inspiration, but also strengthening of their connection.
After a concert they would enjoy the darkness of the night, occasionally exchanging a kiss that would flare up their love, or just sit on the bench in silence until they fell asleep next to each other. Although Alton never opened the subject, Sage still wanted to give him more, but her extreme low self-esteem prevented her from trying. Even if she wanted to get rid of that feeling and completely be his, both with her heart and body, something would break inside and she would stop, fearing that Alton would not suspect something and understand what she was trying to do, at the same time afraid that he might leave her if he realizes.
The night fell, painted the sky with ink and decorated it with small, glittering spots that stood firmly in the sky. Sage was next to the window in a light dress that covered her skin and with her hair clipped. Alton knocked on the door and walked in. Alton (approached): "You're thinking about something?" Sage: "Me? No ... nothing special." Alton (hugged her): "Are you okay? Do you need something?" Sage (looks into his eyes): "I'm fine, do not worry. I wonder why the Writer did not fix me a little bit, she even left me a scars ... And your scar is still there, shouldn't this be a positive story or something?" Alton (smiled gently): "The point is to accept each other as we are, I do not care if there is any flaw on you, I love you anyway. Everything is normal: extra-weight, scars, wrinkles, gray hair ... It's all at some time part of us, so it's crazy to love someone exclusively for the looks, though I love your eyes that look at me with so much love, and your smile, your shy smile, when you look at me and you know that I'm only yours." Sage:" I wish I could go further, but I'm so scared and my confidence is so low ... " Alton (surprised):" Are you sure you want it? " Sage:" Yes , I'm just afraid I'll be repulsive for you... " Alton:" Nonsense, love, (kisses her in the forehead) you will never be repulsive to me, I just do not know how to prove it to you. " Sage:" No,forget it ... it does not matter, really. (Alton goes to the drawer and takes two ribbons, brings them to the Sage and together they move away from the window.) Why do you need these ribbons? " Alton (ties ribbon around her eyes): "If the sense of the vision is the cause of your insecurity ... (ties the ribbon around his eyes) ... then we'll turn off that sense for now." Sage (surprised): "Wait, what ?! " Alton (begins to kiss her): "I want to feel and hear you, I do not have to see you if it causes you discomfort. If something is wrong, tell me (pulling his shirt down)" Sage (crossing over his back with her hands): "You think this will succeed, you think I can relax?" Alton (gently pulling her dress): "We'll try, just concentrate on the feeling, not on the fear. We'll stop if there's a problem, but I will try to make it all easy." Sage (sighed): "And I will try as much is possible..."
Knowing her sensitivity, he tried to be extremely gentle, with fingers softly crossing on her skin unaccustomed to the touch, encouraging her to move hands freely through his body. After some time it was time for Sage to become completely his, so she took a deep breath and clenched her fist because of the pain she didn't feel so far, but that pain did not last long, as nothing but Alton's touch mattered anymore. Totally preoccupied with the new melody they had the opportunity to hear for the first time, they gave themselves into to each note passionately and without fear, enjoying the moment.
It did not diminish their love, on the contrary, it brought a new dimension to their harmonious symphony. They married several years later, at one of their concerts, although they knew that marriage was only a procedure in itself, not a sign of love,because it's needed to work on it to survive. They spent their eternity wrapped in velvety music, soured in a symphony known only to them, at the same time creating music that reached the hearts of other people. They were and stayed an artists as long as their works lived and, as I've already mentioned this fact many times - art is eternal. "
Sue (surprised): "Did you just described..." I (blushing): "You do not have enough years to explain such things to you, it's for a little bit older audience." Sue (laughs): "Only with your and my experience being exactly the same, so you should not read such things either... Technically, you and I are on the same level speaking about it, neither you nor I did get to ... " Me:" Sue, you know what? " Sue: "What?" I: "Shut up." (Sue laughs, I look at the distance.) You can mock me as much as you like, but I'm glad it's on the way it is, I would not even like it to be different. " Sue: "And you just gave the answer why it is that way." I: "Of course. I am not stupid to force myself on things that cause me discomfort just because of the others, such as to be in a relationship or to marry and have children, I can not even imagine myself in that and everyone is striving towards it. It's the same with this, nowadays it's embarrassing while in the past it used to be an ideal, yet I personally don't give a damn what society says because it suits me so- I am not desperate for it, I do not crave anything, I listen to the needs of my own body. I have so many things that occupy me constantly so this thing is almost irrelevant to me, you know that I am able to get into a worse depression phase when I look at my disastrous appearance." Sue: "I know, you usually cry, feeling numb for several days, usually thinking about suicide actively, sometimes even attempting it. No wonder that nothing has changed between my and your age, except that your condition worsened. " Me: "Yes ... Come on, it's time for the next story, we have not finished yet, we have one nasty thing that I have to turn into a positive story. " Sue: "Next one is "Kingdom of Eternal Darkness", but it will no longer exist if we move all the characters from the Kingdom of the Dead." I: "Only a few other characters left to go to their new story, we are close to the end. After that, there is one of the most difficult stories with that terrible scene that send chills down my spine ..."An Experiment of Fear." "
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"EXPERIMENT OF FEAR"
-Working hours have long since begun, a break is near, but doctors are slowly completing their jobs. On the break are also three doctors: Mael- psychiatrist, Anais- orthopedist and Josette- dermatologist. Mael: "I spoke with my colleague, Dr. Erwan, he wants to do some research about fear and how far can it get in some patients... He wants to see if there is a way to relieve these patients of fear in order not to lead them to serious things like suicide. He wants us to see which methods can save a person and alleviate stress, since anxiety is almost the same range of mortality as depression, especially when it becomes an absolute paranoia that changes the person's psyche." Anais:" Sounds great, you could probably try the therapy with music, I heard that music can help a lot in relieving stress." Mael: "We'll try.(smile)" Anais:" Hey, Josie, is your patient still annoying you? " Josette: "You mean Marcus? Oh ... I told him a hundred times that I have a fiancé, but he comes again with fictional symptoms just to insist again to go out with him. He can only dream, but he's really annoying, once I'll really lose my mind and get him out." Anais:" Send him to my office, maybe he will get scared of the bones I've got in my office so he'll get away! (laughter)" Josette: "These are not even real bones." Anais : "They look like they are real! The bones are so fascinating, they have such a beautiful shape ... It's a pity I will never be able to see my bones. " Mael: "You must be very skinny to see them beneath the skin, but that's not healthy." Anais: "I know ... of course I will not do that, I have normal weight and I will not change it. Here comes dr. Roslyn." Dr.Roslyn (enters): "Oh, I had to write Marcus guidance to Dr. Erwan, this is too much, he is always here! He refuses to understand that you don't want to be with him, it seems that he is one of the these pushy boys to whom words and refusal obviously mean nothing. I was once in a similar situation." Josette:" What have you done with your guy? " Roslyn: "I've asked him for a detailed analysis of what he liked about me and an explanation why, most things had to do with the look and nothing was related to me as a person. I told him that he was superficial and that he should come back when he learn to respect a woman as a being, since I do not need someone who will love me because of my current attractiveness that will eventually disappear but because of my qualities that, I hope, will remain while I'm alive. That one gone away, but then I met Erwan and, as you can see, we are doing great, we have been married for years. If Marcus doesn't learn that he can't love only with his eyes but also with his heart then he will not be able to find a girlfriend. " Mael:" Hmm ... I'll take his case, I think there is some interesting combination of personality, wrong beliefs from childhood and negative social influences. I will try to solve this puzzle. " Anais: "What kind of a puzzle?" Mael: "The Writer once said "every human is like a puzzle that's hard to solve", so I try to look at every problem as a puzzle- if you don't merge parts well then you don't have the whole picture and you can't see what's wrong with the person. " Josette (looking at the clock): "Well, girls, the break is over, we have to get back to the patients."
Anais: "That's right, we're going to cure more people today, that's what our profession is for: we use our knowledge to cure a person, not to hurt her in any way." Roslyn (smiles): "Exactly. Medicine and science are for the benefit of people , they should not be used against them - it is inhumane and soulless because every life is important. "
Sue (looks at me): "I think my brain just exploded ... You managed to integrate all these characters into one story? I can not believe it." I: "Yes, as you can see Dr. Erwan and dr.Roslyn are now different characters who want to do the opposite from the "Experiment of fear" story- instead of bringing patients into a bad condition he wants to alleviate their symptoms, while Dr. Roslyn respects the ethics of her job. The only person who ,in a way, remained the negative figure is Marcus, I gave the option that Mael might change him, it depends on the reader. If they think he deserves to be a positive character after that brutal rape they can change him in their idea, I will leave it this way. As about Loan, she got cure in the story and I do not have to add it, but her family will therefore be part of this story." Sue (confused):" How? " Me: "Unfortunately, Loan's father has an antisocial disorder and will be Dr. Erwan's patient, but her brother, now thirty years old, will become the fiancé of the oldest of them ie Josette. He is her fiancé, his mother lives near them and makes them a company." Sue:" You really think of all the characters and all the details ... It makes sense. If Loan's brother is fine, why is the father on treatment? " Me: "Because violence is prevented in time, thereby preventing the tragedy and giving the man the opportunity to go for treatment. You know, many people with psychopathy and antisocial disorder instead of being treated go to prison, thus withholding them from the treatment they need to function in society, so they are more likely to repeat the crime. It's similar as with the substances such as drugs and alcohol, they punish the consequences but they do not solve the cause because it is easier for them to do so. I believe that every crime should be seen from the psychological side, to analyze what was the trigger for it, then to solve that cause. " Sue:" Since when do you deal with this topic? " I: "Since that goddamn lawyer arranged for my father to go to jail for no reason and since he took us so much money in vain, somehow this topic flew out. Sometimes I wonder why they ruined our lives, what is the reason? You're listening quarrels in the morning, you're scared what's next, you can't even get out at the yard because of fear ... You're there, Sue, at that time. Remember that our parents had a lot of work when you were young, that everything was fine? And now? Where is all this now?" Sue: "We lost all on lawsuits for the land and on that bastard who took advantage of our situation, the job stopped and we barely sell something, we are surviving from the sale of iron, cooper, aluminum... which hardly covers our needs, especially since our mother spends three packs of cigarettes per day. It hurts me so much that kids are laughing at me at school for of the conditions in which I live in because we lost everything and now we are barely able to survive, let alone to afford something... (with eyes full of tears) I have to keep quiet about it, I do not want anyone to laugh at me anymore." I (wiping tears from my face): "The one who is able to laugh at someone else's pain is not normal, Sue. Just as those who have led us to it are not normal. Don't ever get embarrassed by this, it has nothing to do neither with you nor with our family, it just happened. " Sue:"We'll continue with the stories? " Me: "Yes, we have reached the story "The Home for Animals" it already has a happy ending, so I have nothing to add." Sue (inhaled): ,,The next is... "cyanide". The most morbid story of all your stories, 10/10 on the scale of morbidity. "13 Deaths". A story that can't be changed." I (breathe in): "Yes, except perhaps some things. "Broken" is now part of the past because of the story "Lollypop", "Shot" is no longer a problem, "Crushed" is kept under control by avoiding new friendships ... This rest it's the same, but if it wasn't like that I would not be here, at this place, I would not talk to you about my stories and dig this hole. I'm doing fine, I've been able to dig a lot while we talked. " Sue (looking down): "It's not bad ... but I do not like its purpose." I (looking at her): "I can't understand how you still have that dose of optimism in you, you still think that something can change. " Sue: "The next story is my story, "It will never be better", you left me in life in it, so it was not the end ..." Me: "Of course it was not, I can not kill a person who exists in the past, that would be unnecessary because it is obvious that the story did not go as it is, as soon as I am alive. Still, you exist, here we call you Sue but you are me, only younger, just as Melody has my name but I like to call her Melody. Melody is part of the imaginary world and she's ranked with stories's characters, while you're real, you're part of my memory. "Sue:" If someone else listened this he would think that you were completely lost your mind. " Me: "Sue, this is the eighth story in the collection that says I've completely lost my mind, and you notice that now? I mean, really. It's enough chatting about it, it's time to finally connect one of my favorite couples. "
"BLACK FOLLOWER - EVIL IS ETERNAL"
-Daniela looked thoughtfully through the window, wincing out of her thoughts when William, her friend and boss, went in. William: "You are so thoughtful, is something bothering you?" Daniela: "For some time one thought is obsessing me, I'm afraid how will you react to it ... " William:" Hm, is it something serious?" Daniela:" You're like a father to me, so I wanted you to know ... I like one girl ." William (surprised): "I did not know you like girls." Daniela: "Me neither, but that's ... the problem is that I can not have this one in any way and I love her... There's no way we can be together. " William: "Why don't you try to meet a girl like her if you can't already be with this girl? Better to try than to suffer your whole life." Daniela: "I guess you're right ... I guess I'll be able to find a person like her." William: "How's that girl looking like?" Daniela: "She is short, about a meter and sixty, a brown hair usually tied in a tail, wearing black clothes and a chain around arms and neck ..." William :,, I do not know about the chain, but I know that I hired one such brown-eyed girl yesterday, she has a strong personality like you. You might meet her, maybe you'll be lucky she likes girls too." Daniela (smile) : "Okay, William, I'll try it for you, though I doubt I'll be lucky."
She rose and went into the corridor, looking for a new employee in the company. William approached her, pointed toward a girl turned to the other side and said, "That's her, feel free to try." Daniela came closer, shyly greeted her and waited for the girl to turn... Daniela: "Ch... Chaina ... You are here? Aren't you ...?! How ...?" Chaina: "I am now a human being just like you, I just wanted to find you, I know you're working here." Daniela: "Wait, does that mean you're being with feelings now and you can lead a normal life?" Chaina: "I can even love. Such a great feeling, I'm so sorry I could not feel it before ... while we were in the underworld... in passionate moments... (blushing) I want to repeat everything, but this time I give you all the feelings I have, if you want it too." Daniela:" You must be kidding, of course I want! I was afraid that we will never be together, my heart only belonged to you. From today to eternity we belong to each other. "
They approached each other, gently kissing and remaining for some time in a embrace. Chaina: "I think we should also inform your friends that all the victims from the story are fine now and that the Black Follower will not return, so that they could calm down, not to spend their literature life in fear." Daniela: Great idea, we'll do it later, after work, and then I'll take you to a special dinner." Chaina: "We're celebrating something?" Daniela: "Yes, I am honored to have the best girl in the world!" Chaina (laughs): "And I wanted to celebrate the same thing!" Daniela: "Every day is a reason for celebrating with you ... (looks her with love) I can not wait for us to enjoy, we have to make up for this time of longing. " Chaina (kisses her): "Okay, we'll make it all up, but now we have to work, the boss will be angry. (laughs)" Daniela (laughs):" He won't, but we are going anyway, after work we'll continue where we stopped. " Chaina (wink): "I'll remember where we stopped. (laughs) See you later, love! " Daniela (sends her a kiss with a smile):" See you, I'll be there if you need me. " Chaina: "I always need you, but I have you in my heart, so it's a bit easier, it's like you're there." Daniela: "Oh, that sounds pretty! Then I'll keep you in my mind so I won't lose you somewhere. " Chaina (smiles): "Agreed!"
Me: "You see, Chainela is back together, finally." Sue: "Let's see - Sage and Alton had love without intimacy, so you added that, and Chaina and Daniela had intimacy without love, so you added love." Me: "Yes, the reverse situation, but both couples are now satisfied. That's the point of this story, that everyone has a happy ending. " Sue: "Except the character of the next story." I (grumpily): "Do not bother to change my mind, you can't." Sue: "What about the other characters in the story?" Me: "So, to sum up- Weber is with Edna, Black Follower is in charge of the end of the life cycle, Frea is a model, Lunata is an actress, seventy victims became part of the story with the Lunata, Chaina and Daniela are together. As for the others, I said in the story that everything is fine, and now I have written that they will be further mitigated by the fact that the Black Follower will not return. And so, that would be all ... No, wait, Julian! " Sue: "Who is Julian?" I: "Lauren's boyfriend, I was annoyed that he has no name. He's Julian. " Sue: "Now you decided to give him a name?" Me: "When would be better time to name him if not now? (both laughed) So, even the horror story got a happy ending, without one single victim. " Sue: "So what kind of horror is that?" I: "Weird, like the person who wrote it." Sue: "I guess you will not add anything to" Lollypop. " I: "No. It is not for me to add anything, I have already written my end ... or, better to say ... I am writing it right now. There is a "The hell with luck" and to place Melody where she belongs. " Sue:"By the way, just to add something - "Lollypop" helped me as a character, because for me this topic is one of the current problems and at least it helped you a bit." Me (soft smile): "True, at least on that way your character is a bit better." Sue: "Let's hear what happened with Hjordis."
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"THE HELL WITH LUCK"
The rain began suddenly, forcing Hjordis to hurry to find a shelter on half-empty streets. Car stood before her; Betari opened the door and greeted her. Betari: "Hi, Hjordis! Get in the car, come on!" Hjordis (enters): "How you got here? " Betari: "I went to take the kids from the kindergarten, how about you?" Hjordis: "I went to Meginfrid, it's her birthday today." Betari (smiles): "Oh, that's nice! Congratulate her in my name." Hjordis: "I will." Betari: "How's your husband?" Hjordis: "Kori is good, he plays with your little girl cousin. (smiles)" "Betari:" I'll come to you these days, we're cousins and we should see each other more often. "Hjordis:" Absolutely, all of you are invited, we'll make a picnic or something. " Betari: "Sounds good. Oh, did you hear that aunt Hema went to her sons abroad?" Hjordis: "When?" Betari: "Last week, she said she's been going for a long time." Hjordis: "If she wants that, it's okay. She probably sees that her sons will not come back here neither." Betari: "It seems so." (stops in front of Meginfrid's house) Greet Meginfrid and see you on Sunday, I'll call you to arrange." Hjordis:" All right! (Waving her, Betari waves back and moves forward with the car)"
Sue: "The cousin ... so that's how Hema got the coat!" I: "Yes, because the two were related even in the original- Hema was at Betari's apartment that night, since she is her closer cousin, you remember that Hema is Hjordis's further aunt, so Betari is a further cousin. " Sue: "And ... who killed Betari in the first story? Hema?" Me: "If we look at the reason why she destroyed Hjordis, then Betari was probably one of the potential heirs too, so most likely Hema was involved into that. " Sue: "And coat?" I: "Coat is Betari's, after her death it changed the owner, Hema did not give it to her if you asked me for it." Sue: "Then we resolved everything about it." Me: "Yes, everything is resolved. The story "L.O.V.E. " has a positive end, the story "Amused Aria" is a fanfiction and I do not have much effect on the action, which means that we are at the end of the list. " Sue: "Just to send Melody in the new story. (laughter)" Me:" She's in the Kingdom of the Dead right now, she is surely bored. " Sue: "Since she has your traits she can never be bored when she is alone, on the contrary. By the way, about "L.O.V.E."... how you found the inspiration for it? (wink)" I: "I read somewhere that same-gender couples stay together for the rest of their lives; it's not easy to find someone with the same orientation. Again, it's much easier to find a partner on the Internet nowadays, but it's not the same, I do not know. I only accidentally was stuck on one dating site, I thought it was a site that rates the user's appeal, so I wanted to see if I was really ugly or not. When messages and likes appeared I realized what kind of site it is, so I tried to at least find some musicians for the band, because I already did not want to be in relationship. Instead, many asked me about my art, but there was not a single musician, I quickly got bored and deleted the profile, but I also learned some things about to myself and others in the meantime. One of the things I noticed was that I was, from more than hundred of the guys who were liking the profile, delighted with every girl who would be among these guys ... I can not believe it, but no guy has caused me that feeling that I would have if I saw the picture of some of the girls who liked my profile. Then I thought - in almost every story I have the girls as a main characters, I mainly draw women, listen to mostly female vocalist, often notice the beauty of a girl on the street while I barely even look at the guys, I'm freaked out by the thought that someone is forcing me to be in relationship with a male person ... I'm not saying that I could not fall in love with a man, I could, it's only obvious that it would go a little harder. And here we go, I've just explained why do we have so many women's couples in my stories. It's a shame that I do not have some male couple, I would not mind that I had this situation in a story, but as a girl I could describe it a little harder. "Sue: "That's something I did not know about you, that is, myself ... There is logic in it , I don't know how I never noticed it. Well, maybe it's a reflection of that in them you see inspiration or comparison, it may not be love, but in some ways you are in them looking for what you would like to be. " I: "It makes sense. Since I do not want to have a close relationship with anyone I will not even try to find it out, let it be an unresolved mystery about me that even I do not know. If someone asks I do not have orientation, but we know that I'm probably bi. I will not tire myself with such things, the clock is ticking and everything is passable." Sue:" The Master of Self-Control - no matter how much it intrigues you, you will stay at your decision. " Me: "Of course, but I would tell everyone else not to spend life in solitude if they do not have to and if they love their life. I personally don't feel lonely - I have music, my faithful love, I have characters of my stories, I have my own complex world of dolls in which was my alter ego ... The hell, my alter ego, Melody is next to go to her story! Enough of this topic, it's time for the Kingdom of the Dead to be completely empty. "
"RED STAIN"
-Twenty-seventh of December, 2012, a seemingly ordinary day for many, but not for Melody. On this day her fans and family would say goodbye to her, wondering why they did not stop her from shooting herself at yesterday's show, not believing that she is gone. It would be so ... but Melody is here in her room. Alone.
There would be some sort of sound from the lower floors, it was common since many people are in the house-there are her three sisters, their families, the children of their friends ... So many people. She was in charge of everything, she took care of her TV station, boutique, career, home, everything but herself. The New year is getting closer, bringing restlessness to her soul, she is wondering why everything has changed during this year, how did she get to that fall? It was a terrible year, starting from the first cut to the suicide attempt on August 13th, and then in October, to the last album with very dark songs.
Steve comes in, Melody's fiancée, or better to say ex fiancé since she returned the ring and broke up with him to make it easier to continue after her death but he did not give up on her. Steve: "You got up? Do you want to bring you something, are you hungry? How do you feel right now?" Melody (tired): "I'm fine, did anyone asked for me after that what happened on the show yesterday? " Steve: "The phones are ringing all the time, the reporters are outside ... We told the majority that you are currently resting and you will not give interviews for some time." Melody (numbly looking ahead): "Thank you ... I mean, for taking care of the press, not for taking my gun out of my hand yesterday while I was speaking. There was no need to do it, really. " Steve (takes her by the hand): "A lot of people got worried after last night, from fans to people from house, some want to talk to you and see if they can help." Melody: "You can help me ." Steve: "Of course, just say what you want." Melody: "I want you to tell me where you put a damn gun." Steve: "I'm not going to tell you that, I will not let you die. People have finally realized what you've been going through all these months- their favorite singer, actress, comedian ... has been falling apart for months. It's not late to change it, together." Melody: "It's too late, Steve, no more point. " Steve: "It would be too late if the bullet ended in your body yesterday, then it would be really late and I could never return you again."
Several people from the house entered the room. Jovana (Melody's sister): "I brought you medicine, it will improve your condition a little." Lirljana (the other sister): "You worried us yesterday, you almost succeeded this time... I do not know what we would do without you. " Teodora (eldest sister): "You see now why I told you this year that you have to be treated, your condition is getting worse!" Montana (Melody's friend): "We will all be with you, do not tire yourself with obligations for some time- maybe you have overloaded yourself, you really took too much responsibility for yourself and you are not able to withstand all that. " Melody: "Obligations are not so big problem, there is something inside me that kills me and destroys my will for life. Do you think I can change it in this state?" Jovana: "We'll try with some therapy, we will not give up on you. You mean a lot to us, without you everything would break. " Melody: "I do not think it would break, you would have done it without me anyway, but I will try the therapy for all of you, for the fans, for the music and the acting." Lirljana (opens the door and turns to Melody): "Somebody wants to see you, can she? " Melody: "Of course, let her in." Katarina (Melody's adopted daughter): "Mom, I watched the show yesterday and then I saw you are sad so I was scared and then I called Zekan and he screamed, so I screamed too and then ..." Teodora: "Katarina, let your mom rest a bit!" Melody (slightly smiles):" I do not mind, let her talk as much as she wants ... I knew what I was getting with her." Katarina: "And what will be now? Will you be fine?" Melody: "I hope so, I will go for therapy for some time... I do not know if it would help me to get away from town a few days, at least as long as the holidays pass, that would have worsen my situation further, I see how it was because of my birthday." Steve: "We'll go together, I will not let you go alone. I'll give you support and I'll look after you." Melody (nods): "Thank you, I'll try as hard as I can to get out. I know very well what would happen to me if I died yesterday, let's see how the story looks like with a different ending. "
Me: "Well, that's Melody's new end." Sue (surprised): "Is that a happy ending to you? It does not sound happy." Me: "Melody went to therapy and recovered a bit, this end has a different plot because in the" Red Stain "she was alone while in fact there were so many characters who care about her, about that person ... Don't grudge against the melancholy atmosphere of that story, it was a tough time, I was really in total chaos. I still am, I just got used to all these things, but then I was in clinical depression and was close to anorexia so I can't get anything positive when I remember that period. " Sue: "Do you mean that she has such support that she can get out?" I: "Yes, there is no guarantee that there is a hundred-percent cure, but she can greatly improve the condition and restore her old life and eventually marry Steve once, as was planned. " Sue: "And then Katarina marries Zekan and has twelve children: Slavujka, Milutin, Persida, Melania, Andrei, Djole, Jovana, Clara, Sarah, Cveta, Jack and Catherine... (laughter)" Me: "Hey, do not mix "Katarina i Kompanija"(Katarina and Company) into this, these are two different concepts. Just to mention, Len from the story is inspired by our former crush, not Steve, so I wrote that there is no such connection between her and Len- he would leave." Sue:" You think so? " I: "I'm sure, that's why it's easy for me to forget about it. Steve was created for Melody, they were a very harmonious couple, but in the story I wanted to try something else and missed the whole point." Sue: "So our Melody has recovered ... The Kingdom of the Dead is empty. Population- 0." Me: "If we observe from the side that the past does not exist anymore then it means that you do not exist either." Sue: "Sort of, I am a literary figure, but I don't exist in real life. I've disappeared in the meantime." Me: "Do not worry about it, Sue, so will I. That's how it goes."
The night approached while we were talking, so I gave up digging and spread the grass in the hole. She: "Why are you doing this? What will you do with that grass?" I (looking at her): "To be a little more comfortable until I I buy a bed. " Sue (surprised): "You're going to sleep there?" Me: "Here is a custom that the grave should be empty at night, so ..."
It was not very comfortable to sleep in that deep hole, I must admit, but I do not know why it would be a bigger problem than regular sleeping in the bed with all that rolling and occasional nightmares, except that occasionally the insects crawling on my body created an unpleasant sensation. It's not like it will kill me ... oh, wait a minute ... it does not matter, this last sentence was extremely unnecessary in this context, at least when I remember why I am here.
Morning. I'm waking up and don't find anyone, Sue has gone. There is no more time to think about the past and what I had created, I have to go back to work. I'll say goodbye to everyone later.
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I thought in the meantime what else I had to do in life, but everything I imagined was replaced by thoughts about the absurdity of the particular activity. Fourteen times I died in my stories, it seems so easy when it happens in the story and when you feel it is over. Is it how real death looks like? Is this feeling of relief present at that moment when the heart makes its last sound, when the blood stops in the bloodstream and the air never passes through the lungs again? Is there that feeling of relief that I have when I die in a story? So many people have had the opportunity to feel it before me, but nobody could ever say what it looks like when you're an actor of it. Therefore death, whatever it was, remained one of the greatest mysteries, along with the existence of the universe and time , the concept of consciousness and its functioning, the rest of the cycle of life and many more things that are difficult or impossible to explain. Such simple questions, extremely complex answers.
During my lifetime I tried to understand the human psyche and differences of each individual, studying their words, actions, and emotions. Sometimes it seems that what we show in the public is not the same as we keep in ourselves, as if we have to create several different versions of ourselves for different people. If we know that someone will hurt us we are restrained, we do not allow them to find out about us the things that can be used against us. In retrospect, people are prone to judge others without thinking that they themselves also could be judged for their own actions or traits. During the summer I get a lot of negative comments because of my sleeves so sometimes I ask myself - are people just so quick beings that they do not see the situation from another side other than the one which this underestimating society is teaching them? In order to better understand people it is necessary that we know what is behind their actions, but we can expect that only from these we know better, otherwise we will build our assumption on "maybe" and "probably". Again, is it really important that we know trivial and potentially semi-truthful things about people we barely know? I know that this is part of a social skill that I do not have, but I always feel unpleasant to question people about their lives yet I do not want them to think that I am an egoist because I let them ask me their questions. Maybe one of the reasons is that even the most common question can lead to a strong emotional reaction in the person we are talking with. Think, for example, of this situations: you ask a person whether he/she is in relationship /married, turns out to had a painful breakup /divorce, you ask someone if they have children, turns out they can not get them or something even worse, you ask someone for a particular family member, it turns out that this person has died. All these are seemingly simple questions, the questions that we ask the others every day, never even thinking that underneath it may be the greatest pain in the life of some person. I started to avoid detailed answers, sometimes I even have to conceal the truth to stop them opening the wound even deeper, wanting to know things that have nothing to do with them, without having the reason why they want to know it but only to ask just like that or to laugh at me later. That's the case with the aforementioned long sleeves- it seems so unusual to them that they have to ask me why I'm dressing that way, while I know one dark story underneath them. I wonder why some simple things like talking are often the causes of very difficult situations and sources of discomfort and that all the words on the planet have become a routine in which we are drowning each day, while at the same time we long for other beings to hear things that we may never need and lead conversations that we have listened for a hundreds of times. As for some cliché they will ask you things they do not care about and expect the positive answers from you to the questions "How are you?" and "What's new?", give you some "wisdom" if your answer is not what they expected that they will hear. Every day we are drowning in these conversations. Okay, not me. I'm talking with myself.
I was so fascinated by this world I was living in, and at the same time I did not even want to meet it -maybe from the side I saw enough to never want to be part of it. The glass bell in which I spent my life was protection from external influences, but I could still hear and see the world around me: it seems as if that glass increased the intensity of the tone and that each word responded as an echo in me. That's why I pushed my glass bell to the far side of the cabinet where were just I, a dusty doll and a green metal car toy, together we waited for time to destroy us. Sometimes someone would wipe the doll, drive the car through the old carpet, while I just stood there in my corner because I wanted nobody to see and hear me, wanting to get closer to the edge of the shelf, push down my glass bell and thus finish a life that did not exist.
I tried to understand how this species "Homo sapiens" works, not understanding whether we are all the same or different. We are same from the point of view of life and inner force, which we call consciousness and emotions, but as individuals we are so different. Maybe again it has to do with the environment, it may be inherited ... How to look at the human race as "the same individuals"? It is impossible to satisfy all the needs of each individual separately, we are created with different thoughts, desires and goals, while at the same time there are same pattern with some other people (when choosing a career, place of life, school ...), it is difficult to find two identical individuals whose absolutely all wishes, skills, goals and hobbies coincide. Maybe that's what we call individuality, a specific and unique connection of things that many more people like, know and want, so that makes us seem different. It is probably principle used for creating friendships and relationships- the more similarity, the greater chance that people will agree with each others, unless the differences are so strong that they make these similarities irrelevant. But... if the human psyche is so complex, does it mean that our traits may not be static? My traits are not static, maybe it only seems so because my mood disorder is often playing with me, but I notice that I can not define them and it's weird when other people say with certainty who they are. How is it possible that we know who we are? How well do we know ourselves? I do not believe that a human is static, he is guided by situations , not the traits that he thinks he has. It is certain that he will not always be good and peaceful towards everyone if someone hurts him greatly, even if he would be the biggest pacifist on the planet. We all have that point in the mind that is able to blind the whole sanity and make the most calm man forget his beliefs and forbids. All... even me.
And so, as hundreds of thoughts flashed through my head, hundreds of philosophies that would just fly through my mind and die there, I wanted to think about how important this thing was, but my brain did not want to think about it. No... it wanted to make its assumptions and think about everything, it always constantly dragged me somewhere and completely exhausted me. It would be nice to have some button in me to turn off the brain and the psyche, they were so overheated that they no longer work properly and just create the problem. I will turn them off tomorrow for the first time from the moment I became aware of my existence, it will be an unusual feeling.
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In the evening everything was ready for tomorrow, so I called all my characters from my head to say goodbye and wish them a happy beginning of eternity. I started to speak in front of that crowd of characters, there are created quite a lot of them for these ten years of writing and whole life of daydreaming. I breathed in and started: "My dear ones, thank you for making me a company so far and being part of my works, I'm sorry that some of you had to go through hell in your stories and I hope you will be satisfied with your new stories, I wanted everyone to be happy. I want your stories to inspire, comfort, entertain, make someone think about some philosophical themes, to help someone find the core of their own problems and face it. If nothing else, be the best friends to some soul like me, just make sure it does not fall into the abyss like me, help her to overcome her demons. If in any case she goes into the deepest corridors of the pages and thinks that the exit does not exist remind her that the light is right there, that your stories end up differently, that darkness is just a part of the writer, not a story. It is difficult for me to leave you this way, but I would have to leave once anyway, so I wanted to tell you once again how dear you are to me, I hope that you will be half as dear to someone else too. I wish you all the best,to get to someone's heart, it will be a reward for both story and a writer. I did what I could, now it's up to you to find the way to eternity. Goodbye, my friends. "
They slowly disappeared and returned to their stories, ready to go into their adventure every time someone read the work they were in, eventually returning to their utopia where nothing I create will hurt them anymore. I remained alone, remembering more one character who was almost enrolled in a collection of my stories, but I nevertheless realized that she is, like Melody, something like an alter ego. Blue Rose. Super-heroic alter ego created when I was nine or ten years old, wishing to save the world and that people need me. If I knew that I would end up like this I would think it was extremely ironic, but what does a child know in a second or third grade of primary school, how was I supposed to know that I would spend most of my life alone with my thoughts.
Blue Rose has her own characteristic look: blue dress, gloves to the elbow, brown boots, a specific bun, a small tiara and a ribbon around the neck. She has five powers, the first one allows her to create everything material, the second to teleport anywhere, the third one to control the weather, the fourth to be transformed and the fifth is for wings, snow-white and silky like angels. There have long ago been Team Blume (German word for flower), a set of five friends who saved the world and helped people, but during the time from my life disappeared Pink Tulip, Red Carnation, Yellow Dandelion and White Hyacinth, only Blue Rose has remained to remind me that magic is hiding inside me. In the meantime I realized that I am still her, only without glittering dust with magic, my magic is art and music with which I create world I want in me. But, Blue Rose long ago stood on the skyscraper's rooftop on a rainy evening, cut off the parts of her wings and so bloody let the force of gravity take her down on a short distance from the edge of the skyscraper to the deserted street. Maybe it was her the end, given that I never gave her the final story, she remained as part of me and died there. Melody played her in one acting project long ago, at least she will be remembered in my world of dolls.
Another night, I dream of climbing to the last floor of the construction site, this time I do not wake up before I fall down, but I dream of my death, as if I can feel it while slowly takes me. With the first rays of the sun I opened my eyes and went to the first inhabited place, there was one more thing to finish.
Walking along all those people I never saw my heart started beating fast, I want none of them to know me and to ignore my presence, I do not want to have a conversation with anyone. Frightened, I was searching for a store I needed, found it in one isolated street.
I come in. Although around me are the things that send chills down the spines of most people, such as wooden coffins and pictures of the gravestones, I do not care at all, maybe I am even calm because of the darkness and silence that this store possesses just for its purpose. However, the older man of a gentle face is approaching , wanting to serve his client. Salesperson: "May I help you? What do you need?" I: "I want a black coffin. Simple, without some details, just to be black." Seller: "Here, we have one black, without details. I do not know whether the size is right for the person you are buying, this coffin is smaller than the majority I have in the store ..." Me:"Perfect size, no need for another one. (seeing plastic flowers at the showcase) Do you have more of these blue roses in the basket?" Seller: "I have three such baskets at the moment and I have a dozen bouquets of roses in blue color... You may want some other color, or other flowers ..." Me:" No, only blue roses. All flowers in the world are beautiful, but this one means to me. It is more than beauty, it is the core of my soul." Seller (confused): "Yes ... every flower is beautiful. How many flowers do you want?" I: "All you have, all three baskets and a dozen bouquets." Seller: "I'm sorry to ask, but who died to you?" I: "Well ... she used to be a friend to me, in the meantime we got lost and we were in quarrels for years ... I owe it to her." Seller: "I'm confused - you say that you were in the quarrel and yet you are buying a coffin for her. Why didn't someone of her closer ones come to buy, instead of you doing it? "I (nervously): "Um ... I offered to do it, it's a difficult thing. " Seller: "Yes, especially when it's the younger person. (packing flowers in bags) How old was deceased?" I: "She was my age." Seller (sad): "Oh, terrible! Was she ill?" I (look at the floor): "Sort of. She has been living with depression and anxiety for years. She has committed suicide." Seller (shocked): "Oh, God, couldn't she cure it somehow ...?" I: "Maybe she could cure her mood, but she couldn't cure her thoughts. They took her so far away, there where no one could give a logical explanation for the existence of life. It does not matter anymore, it's already over." Seller: "Eh, what's life, someone leaves this world too young, the other one lives long... It's not good when young people started to take their own lives. "I (nervously):" Years have nothing to do with death, it's inevitable anyway. " The seller: "Yes, child, but is that a way for one young life to end, a person who was supposed to start life, to have a family ..."
Inside me were mixed feelings of anger and panic- why do I have to listen to these things? Was that my purpose for this society, just to be a number and to have an offsprings because "this is how it's supposed to be"? I know this man has good intention, they all have, but is that a reason to mourn over young people, their power of reproduction? Can young person have anything but "a lot of life in front of him" and old person to be as important as the young, since it is also a living being, only slightly older? However, perhaps on this planet people are not priced by themselves, but only by what they can give to the world and society, which always lift a border of their insane desires knowing that you will not be able to fulfill it, until you grow old and realize that you have spent all the years torn between society and your heart, looking back to see where all those years have disappeared. Huh... seems that I really lost my mind, look what I found to think about in this moment. I have to put myself together, he shouldn't suspect what is happening and to ruin my plan.
After my uncomfortable nodding, he asked me, "Do you want me to put the name of the deceased on a coffin?" I (surprised): "Why? Oh, yes, here we put names and years... Shouldn't that be put on a cross?" Seller: "Some buyers wanted to put it on the coffin, that's why I ask, since you probably don't buy a cross ... " I:" No, no ... just a coffin." Seller: "I'll get the letters to stick ... (go and takes a box) ... tell me the name of the deceased, then I will put the year of birth and death. What was her name?" I (breathed deeply, feeling my lungs breaking apart from pain): "Suzana. Her name was Suzana."
THE END OF THE LAST STORY
05/12/2019 02: 20pm (typing finished 05/18/2019 at 4pm)
Suzana Ristic Suza
05/12/2019 02: 20pm (typing finished 05/18/2019 at 4pm)
Suzana Ristic Suza
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Something for the End:
"Thanks to everyone who read this story and / or some of my other stories, I am very grateful for that.
"Thanks to everyone who read this story and / or some of my other stories, I am very grateful for that.
On this occasion, I want to apologize if I have offended anyone in any work, it was never my intention, as well as to note- don't follow my self-destructive steps from the story, whatever happens to me remember that this is just part of the story. For the past ten years I have learned a lot, created a lot of stories and characters, I even managed to publish all the stories. Thank you for being part of it, thank you for every second you have given to any of my work. I hope that at least some parts have made a positive impression on you, once again I apologize for everything that was not right. Life is not eternal, try not to spend it in the darkness of your own mind, I see where it has brought me - remember that you create the story of your life, make an effort around it and leave to the new generations story worth mentioning. If anybody needs me, I will be in my works. "
Suzana Ristic Suza
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